What if none of this is real? Like what if I made all of this up, all the times I spent in what felt like hell and heaven. What if the thing that I love most in life is all in my mind to help me cope with the evil things in my life? What felt like a dream is crashing into my personal nightmare. Even worst what if i'm wrong and this does exist? My own hell that only I have experienced, my own small moments in heaven. That means my demons are real but unlike in the stories there is no angel to save me from the darkness. No has cares enough to try. The only thing that is real is my fear of the future and present. I've seen the darkness in people and it scares me. I see what they are capable of and its terrifying. I stay up at night, scared of the death that awaits me, but also wanting it to take me. But then again this could all be in my head. Guess I will never truly know. Real or not I don't care my deepest desire has and always will be to meet the person that cares enough to save from the darkness. I want an angel.
