Our destiny

Chapter 1 - Arrival

Edited**

Alyza
Standing under the rain always clams you. It feels like a tonne of heavy weight being lifted off you. That's exactly what I feel right now. I wish I could get my childhood back. Be just Like these kids. So free and happy. But it won't  happen again, just like my every other wish.

I take a deep breath and head towards my car to go home. To my mum. The reason of my living.
HOLY SHIT! I haven't told her yet, suddenly that thought struck me. Shit! She's going to be soooo angry! God! Alyza how can you be so stupid!? No wait, that devil is an idiot. My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of the door opening. Home.

HA! I can smell the fragrance of pakoras ( Pakistani snack) which always brings a smile to my face after a tiring day of work.It always happens. Whenever she cooks something, you can smell it outside.
Excitedly but tense I enter in.
"Asalamu alaykum  Mama!!! How was your day".

"Walaykum asalam, good beta. How are you?How  was your day? Did u eat anything?" She bombarded me with questions, and just as I was about to answer her she spoke again.

"No u didn't! I knew it. Ya Allah what am I going to do with this girl. Just look at your face." She said looking angry .
OMG NOT AGAIN!!
"Mama....!!!, I'm fine nothing Happened to me" i hug her from behind " as long as you are with me, nothing can happen to, I love u mama". I quickly wipe the tears which are threatening to fall out before she sees them.
"Alyza beta, I love u too but what happened? Why do u look worried?"

"Nothing mom."

"Okayyyy. Just go and freshen up". She said not buying much of what I just said.

"Ok" I said and left towards my room thinking how do I tell her. She would be so sad. Even I can't spend a day without her let alone live in a different country for sometime. But what do I do? That stupid IDIOT! I really don't like my coordinator. He is just soooo......agh!! PICKY! Why did he have to pick me.

That man seriously pisses me off!
How would u tell her Alyza??? It's for a damn month!

I go to the bathroom, and hop in to the hot steaming water, relaxing my sore legs.

I turn off the shower after good 20 minutes or so and quickly wear my clothes kept on the stand. Wrapping a towel around hair, I walk out to see mama sitting on my bed waiting for me with try filled with food.
"Mama I was coming, you didn't have to bring it up to my room". I say.

She always worries soo much about me. Yeah I know she is a mother but I don't like seeing her bothering her self so much with work. She is all I got.
I move the food try aside and lie down in her lap.

"Mama I need to tell you something", I say while fidgeting with my fingers. I'm a nervous wreck right now... God knows what will be her reaction.

"What beta?"
"Mama" I sit up and hold her hands.
"Mama.... Umm... U know Mr, Steve, my coordinator. He has selected me to go to the conference in Pakistan. It's an international conference with people from all different fields".
I open my eyes and see her looking at me with a blank look.

"Mama", I call her to see what she has to say about this. Her reaction is kinda scary even though I know she never stops me from achieving the best to accomplish my dream. But still...
"Beta all of a sudden.."

I quickly situp and take her hands in mine, stopping her from saying further. "Yeah, I know Mama, it is, I didn't know anything about it either. He just told me today. Mama I won't go if u don't want me to . It doesn't.."

"No beta go. I will be fine and u have to go, I'm not feeling bad about you going. Infact I'm proud, that my daughter was selected from the the whole department. Go beta. It's important" she says putting a stop to my blabbering.

"But Ma.." I try to reason with her that I  can't leave her alone here and also that I can't live without her.. But she won't  listen.

"Look Alyza, I will be fine darling. Don't worry about me. Now tell me when are you going?" And this is where I'm unable to utter any words out.. I mean how do I tell her that it's in couple of hours ? So soon!?

"Alyza..Hun?" Mum's voice brings me out of my thoughts. Oh yeah

"Umm Maa, it's in 2 hours"

"But beta so soon?"

"Yeah I know mama he.." She interrupts me again.

"Alyza 2 hours beta! That means you only have one hour to prepare! Ya Allah! Hurry up Alyza, pack ur bag! Get up. We don't..."
Omg, she is literally going on and on.

"Mama, listen I will be fine, Chill."
She nods are head and heads for the door "get ur papers and other stuff ready, I'll pack ur bag", with that she walks out. I know she needs time to process all this, as this is all sudden for her.

I look at the time, 7pm. Got exactly 1hr and 50 minutes till my flight. Agh! I groan and get up to prepare my stuff and my self as well.

I'm like running here and there to get everything done... By the time I look at the clock it's 7.45pm! Oh god!
"Mama!!!" I call to her while coming out of my room with my hand bag and my hand carry to see if she's done.

"G beta"

"Ma, it's time, I'm running late ", I look at her with tear full eyes. I have no control over them.

"Come here Alyza" I run in to her open arms and hug her so tight that I wish I could stay like this.

"Beta, u have to take care of your self,!Ok!? Don't worry too much my baby, I'll be fine." I stay in her embrace for sometime until she speaks again.

"Alyza, it's 8 pm, u need to go". I pull out of her arms and look into her eyes to find tears in those two beautiful orbs.

"mama... "

"Shh beta, just go and make me proud, in no time you will be here. I will miss you meri Jan"  she says while wiping mine and her tears.

With this goodbye, I walk out and take my driver to the airport. It's feels soo empty without her. How will this 1 month pass?

I check in, just in time or probably just a bit late for my flight, but thank god I didn't miss it. I rush inside and take my seat. Sigh. This will be a long time I thought.

Wait.. Why am I getting this weird feeling inside me? You know when something unexpected good but bad as well happens, u get this weird feeling. I'm having those now. And it's no good.
Ya Allah, please keep me in your protections and mercy. I continuously make this prayer to Allah as I look out and suddenly I find my self zoning out.
What days were they, when everything was normal.. So pure and easy life was.

Going to Pakistan is not easy for me. Especially after 7 years. Infact I strongly dislike going there.. Everything from my past, the past that hunts me till now, is linked to that country. I just wish everything turns out to be good.
"Ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seat belts as we are about to land in Islamabad international airport", the sound of the announcement jolts me awake. I look around and realise I fell asleep with the thoughts of Pakistan. Oh wait!
Omg! Pakistan! I'm here!
This is not good. I find my self so tense now..
After all the checkouts and scanning, when I step out of the airport, a strange kind of feeling consumes me.
It's like I will be once again, be standing on the same place I was 7 years ago...!