Not Just Teammates - Neymessi

Unexpected

Messi pov*

Today was the day. Celebrating a year of being with my baby Neymar, I made reservations for La pointe at 6pm, I have a special suprise for Neymar, I'm going to make this a night to remember, just me and Neymar against the world, I can't believe that from that first day I saw Neymar that I was going to be planning on spending my whole life with him, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

Neymar is my whole world, he's the only thing that is keeping me sane, without Neymar I'd be nothing and I can't express how much he means to me, it's unexplainable how much I love him, but tonight I'm going to make it so perfect that he does, he's going to know how much he means to me and how much I love and care about him, my Neymar, my whole world.

As I finished gelling my hair, putting on deodorant and having a quick shave, I quickly went to the back of my wardrobe and held the box in my hand.

As I admired the gold band I knew, this was the day I do this, this is the day I propose to Neymar, the day that is going to change our whole futures for the good.

As I pulled up to Neymar's drive way he was already waiting outside of his door, my heart sped up as I looked at him, he looked so perfect, just everything about him, his face, his body, everything.

I can't wait to wake up to my beautiful boy every morning and go to sleep with him every night, tonight is the night where my dreams come true, oh my beautiful Neymar, tonight I am going to make you my fiancé and we are going to spend the rest of our lives together.

Neymar's pov*

As Messi pulled up, I just lost it, all my thoughts were coming back, all my other thinking about how every other boy in the world is so much better than me and how much more happier Messi would be if he was with someone else, all these thoughts were flooding though my mind.

I plastered a smile on my face and walked towards where Messi was pulled up, he got out of the car and hugged me tight, "baby you look so amazing" he spoke, I instantly blushed, "thank you, so do you" I spoke and got into the car.

My insecurity had gotten so much worse over the past month, I hate myself so much for not being the boy Messi wants, for not making him happy, for not being good enough for him.

Every night before I sleep, I have to take around 5 tablets to knock me out so that those voices in my head leave, I'm so broken, if only he knew what was going on in my head, if only he knew what I do to myself everyday.

I wish I could be saved but I can't, he can't save me from myself, no one can, I don't know how much longer I can keep pretending to be happy, I need help but I refuse to get it, I need to do something before it's too late, I can't let Messi be dependent on me.

I'm not good enough, I'm not what he wants.

I felt his eyes on me. I hate when he does this, it breaks me down every time, I want to be happy, I want to put a smile on his face but I can't. I can't, oh Messi I love you so much, of only you knew, if only you could save me.

As we parked up at what seemed like a 5 star restaurant, Messi came around to my side of the car and opened the door for me, I thanked him as he grabbed my hand "this is going to be such an amazing night baby,I promise", he spoke as he brought the back of my hand to his mouth and kissed it softly.

I stopped where I was and I turned to Messi, "I love you so much, never forget that okay?", I spoke with a shaky voice. He looked nervous, "what's wrong baby?" He spoke softly, I attempted to clear my thoughts "nothing baby, just promise me that you'll never forget. No matter what happens" I said, he held my face in his hands and kissed me gently "I promise baby" he spoke.

And for once I genuinely smiled, I can do what I promised myself I was going to do, I can leave, I can finally be where I want to be, I can be happy, I can be where I want to be, now that he knows I love him, he should know that I am making the right decision.

As Messi sat down at the table, I told him that I'm going to the bathroom, if only he knew that was the last time he was ever going to see me.

Luckily, the bathroom was empty, I looked through my jacket pockets and found my pills, I also got out the note,the note for my family,friends and especially Messi, I can't imagine the look on Messi's face when he walks in here and finds me, but this is what I have to do, otherwise I would be living a life that I didn't want to live and that isn't fair.

The voices came. I knew I had to do it emptying a hand full of pills into my hands, I swallowed them all back along with some water. Nothing was happening to me, I was still here, I was still alive, I swallowed back another hand full, that was when it happened, I heard muffled voices and I felt the jar of pills being ripped out of my hands, he was too late, I couldn't be saved.

Suddenly my thoughts stopped, my body went numb and everything went black.