Yeah... I messed up. Pretty badly. Screwed up every chance I had of fixing my broken heart. I went and did what I promised myself I would never do. Promised myself I would never hurt another human like I've been hurt. Promised that I could never do the things that people said I would. Promised I would be different from the last. But I proved them all right.
Yeah...I messed up. Thought I would be able to be happy in my life for the first time in years. Thought I would be able to kill the repeating sad voices in my head repeating the same thing over and over again. Thought I would finally have an actual smile on my face.
Lost the chance to make up for the past. Lost the chance to keep something good. Lost the chance to love. Lost the chance to show him that he meant the world to me. I showed him how big of a liar I was.
Yeah....I did way more then mess up.
