I'm Normal I Swear (Sequel to Everything has Changed)

Chapter 50

*Kenzie's P.O.V*

I woke up to my phone going off like crazy. I rubbed my eyes answering the phone.

"H-hello." I mumbled while half yawning.

"Kenzie I have been trying to-" Taylor spoke, but I cut him off by hanging up. I laid in my bed and looked at the messages he sent me.

~Last night~

T: Kenzie please I am so sorry

T: I shouldn't have kissed her I am so sorry

T: You are the only girl in my eyes

T: Please answer

~This morning~

T: When you wake up could you ring me

T: I am the worst guy ever

T: I love you okay, no one else

T: Please don't leave I cant lose you

Brent: I heard you're single again ;)

I rolled my eyes locking my phone and leaving it on my end table and climbed back into bed and silently cried when someone wrapped their arms around me. I turned around seeing Connor, I hugged into as I cried harder.

"He keeps messaging me... I want to forgive, but then I don't." I murmured in his shirt probably leaving tear stains on his clothes.

"I know it hurts, but do what you think is best okay."

"I know he is going to do it again and I won't be ready for it and be in a worser state."

"Um worser isn't a word." Connor chuckled.

"You know what I meant." I half smiled as Connor brushed a strand of hair behind my ear and kissed my forehead.

"Aaron and Shawn are coming down if you wanna come chill with us." JC sat on the end of my bed.

"No thank you I think I will just stay in my bed and watch films on Netflix."

"Okay, but I am hiding your blades and pills." Connor stared at me.

"I am also locking your bathroom door so if you need to go you have to use the one downstairs." JC spoke.

"Why my bathroom?"

"So you don't tempt to drown yourself." I sighed shaking my head.

"Guys I can't do this."

"Yes you can Kenzie we have faith in you, we all do." JC hugged when my phone went off.

"Its Taylor." Connor read off the screen.

"You can answer it, but I am going to put something on Netflix. I grabbed my Xbox controller and climbed back into bed.

"She doesn't want to talk right now Taylor." JC spoke while I laid across Connor.

"Wanna watch Orange is the New Black?" I grinned at Connor as he shrugged.

"Sure, but I need food first." I smiled as he got off the bed.

"Taylor wants to know if he can stop by to talk." JC looked at me.

"No way."

"Sorry Taylor, but she said no."

"I did ask her, Taylor you need to understand that she wants some space." JC started to get angry so I grabbed the phone and hung up and put it on silence.

"I am going to get changed and then we can watch Orange is the New Black." I smiled at JC before skipping into the bathroom and stripped out of sleepwear outfit and got changed.

I walked out of the bathroom and Connor was sat there as he just stared at the film.

"I brought up popcorn, chocolate and candy." I laughed climbing into my duvet and cuddled up with Connor.

"Have you told the fans about you being gay yet?" I whispered to Connor as he looked down at me and nodded.

"Yeah, I made a coming out Video and uploaded it yesterday."

"Aw, that's so cute, how did they take it."

"Surprisingly well, they are all so supportive." I smiled up at him hugging him.

"I am so proud of you I know its not an easy thing to do, but you did it." He laughed thanking me and hugging me. Connor is my older brother, when I first came into the house he was the first one I bonded with we got on straight away.

"I am proud of you too." Connor smiled at me.

"How so?"

"You are trying your best not to self-harm or to commit suicide and I know its hard because you sometimes feel low. I nodded as he took a selfie and I put the caption.

"Coming out is a good thing, so proud of Con." Then we put it on twitter and Instagram.

After the film Shawna and Aaron came with the others O I stayed in my room when someone knocked on my door.

"Come in." I watched the door as Jenn and Hayes walked through.

"Hey how are you feeling?" Jenn hugged me smiling.

"Iffy, but getting there." She nodded smiling.

"You are a strong girl you know that." Hayes ruffled my hair as he took a seat next to me.

"Not really."

"Don't make me tickled you." Hayes warned.

"No no no okay okay." I laughed putting my hands up to surrender.

"Just a warning Taylor is downstairs with the others, if you wanan get something to eat or drink I will happily distract him just text me when you wanna come down." Jenn flashed a small smile.

"Thank you, but I don't need to worry I have to face my problems not run away or hide from them."

"You're such a wise child, unlike me." Hayes laughed making me laugh.

"What you doing now?"Jenn asked.

"Um probably gonna watch PPL or something."

"OH MY GOD GIRL I AM WATCHING THAT WITH YOU!" Jenn cheered climbing into the duvet too.

"I will leave you guys to it." Hayes laughed pecking Jenn then hugging me.

"See you later." I waved as he walked out.

"When you come to New York we are going shopping." I laughed agreeing with her when I got a text.

T: I know you don't want to talk to me I get that, but please hear me out?

K: Tonight at 11 knock on my bedroom window and I will let you in...

T: Thank you so much babe you wont regret it

K: Taylor I am not dating you...

T: I know, I know

I locked my phone and payed attention back to the film.