If We Love Again

4

"Baekhyun, please just stop there."

The back of this petite figure clad in a grey hoodie and slim fit ripped jeans halted in his tracks abruptly. Tears were already forming in Chanyeol's eyes as he stared at the person who he has been chasing and finding so desperately for so long right in front of him. Even all the audience had their heads whirling to the direction of the two of them and some even craning their necks to see.

"It's really been very long, my koong..."

Tears seem to running quickly down his cheeks as Chanyeol took a step forward towards Baekhyun, with Jong Dae still behind him, staring at both of them with his mouth agape. The whole surrounding was in pin-drop silence with only sounds of footsteps disrupting the silence. Every step he took carried an amount of sadness and longing to be back with him but there was still this amount of knowledge that he knew that there was never going to be a chance for both to be entwined together again. 

 When Chanyeol finally reached Baekhyun, he lifted the microphone to his trembling lips that had a cry at the brink of coming out. His eyes blinked as he tried to held back the tears that was ready to fall like heavy rain pour. After a sigh, Chanyeol brought his head to level with Baekhyun's as he began.  

I want to take the star there and give it to your eyes

Give it with my everything inside

Sometimes I cry what if i lose you
Sometimes I feel you sleeping in my arms

I promise you on the day of first snow
I promise you, holding your hands as we walk on the day, and shout
I love you may our hands together wouldn't know the flow of time  

Even though it was a short song, tears was already falling from Baekhyun's eyes. The low voice of Chanyeol's reminded him of the past when they were on a date and Chanyeol would sometimes bring a guitar along and sing for him. He missed that time. The occasional voice cracks in between the song felt like a stab to his heart. Baekhyun really hated to see Chanyeol being so heartbroken. Even though his back was facing Chanyeol, he could feel that Chanyeol was now smiling and staying strong while fighting back the tears that were threatening to fall any moment. He could feel that Chanyeol already had a tear-stained face. His heart broke even further as he thought how Chanyeol felt as he sang the song. The song felt like a plead. A plead for Baekhyun to stay. A plead for Baekhyun to love him again. Baekhyun wanted to just turn around and pull Chanyeol into a hug. He wanted to just cup his cheeks and place his lips onto Chanyeol's soft and plump lips. He wanted to just feel the giant's warmth and love again but he could not. He just could not. His feet stood rooted to the ground. 

He had seen Chanyeol frequently outside after their breakup and many times, Baekhyun just wanted to run to him and scare him but the thoughts of his family's strong disapproval of this relationship always came to his mind.

"Baekhyun, do you really love Chanyeol? He's a guy for god sake. I want you to leave immediately or I will sever my ties with you and pretend that you are never my son."

"Baekhyun, oh my god. Please. I thought you would get  a pretty girl like my wife. I thought you always liked a girl with long and beautiful flowing hair. A girl that is full of charms. Here you are, telling me that you like a guy named Chanyeol? Dream on. I will never accept him. Lose him or lose your family because Mum and Dad will never accept him as well."

He could not lose his favourite brother. He could not bear to leave his parents. He just did not have the heart to break any of his family members' heart and expectations of him and he had no choice to break Chanyeol's. Neither did he knew that the breakup had hurt Chanyeol so badly and even his. After they broke up, Baekhyun had locked himself up his room and cried all the day long. Sometimes he wondered whether there was a limit to the amount of tears one could shed. Sometimes he would just go into his bathroom as he let the hot steaming water burnt his skin. Sometimes he would just stay under his desk where it was dark as he took a scissors to cut his skin, letting his tears sting his fresh wounds as they rolled down together with the droplets of blood. The pain from all these just could not be more painful than him not being able to be with Chanyeol. However, after being found out by a close friend named Yi Xing, he stopped all this actions and tried to forget about Chanyeol. He thought he had done so but he was wrong because here he was weeping again because of Chanyeol.