Mine

Chapter 33

"You two were loud." Niall greets us as we walk into the kitchen the next morning. 

"Now Niall if anyone was loud it was you, you are the loudest snoring pig I've ever met. While Louis and I here have mastered the art of quiet sex." Harry smirks. 

Niall does a fake gag at the words 'quiet sex'. I laugh grabbing my cup and tea heating the water. 

"Tea anyone else?" I offer filling my cup up with water. 

They both shake their heads, should of known Harry goes to the fridge grabbing his orange juice and granola with yogurt. I can't stand his healthy lifestyle but I'm going to have to if I'm marrying him in a few months. My cold pizza I wanted is now gone, Harry surely didn't eat it so Niall did. 

"Niall don't eat my pizza." I say shutting the fridge slightly annoyed. 

"You did say-" 

"No I didn't, I know exactly what your about to say, 'you said I could help myself' well it may seem a natural thing as a guest and my damned protector, but I do not like people helping themselves to stuff that isn't theirs!" I snap. 

"Lou calm down it's just pizza." Harry hooks his arm around my waist from behind giving me a kiss on the head. 

"I can't stand that someone always has to be here now. It's fucking suffocating." I pull out of Harry's grip around my waist walking off to my room slamming the door behind me. 

I realize it's something that has to be done for the safety of me. I don't really care about the safety of me, I don't really care that I have a whole team my team wanting to kill me really. I'm pretty fed up with all of it. I said I didn't want to know why they did what they did but damn it I want to know now. I've been lying to myself about being okay, I've been lying to Harry and my mum when she found out. I've been lying to everyone who ever fucking cared and loved me. I really am the soulless prick that he fell in love and so desperately tries to save. I pick up the lamp off my stand and throw it across the room it connects with the wall with a loud crash landing on the floor in pieces. I know I'm crying the true emotions I've been trying so desperately to hide from everyone who tried to help them. I'm a fucking coward. My hands find stuff and I just throw them one after the other, crashing to the floor in pieces. 

"Lou stop!" Harry rushes in wrapping his massive arms around me as I fall to the floor utter despair. 

I curl my legs up to my chest letting it all go, every ounce of pain from the recent events come in evidence of tears stained on my cheeks and Harry's bare chest. They broke me even more than what I already was. I've never felt the way I am now this feeling is just horrid. 

"What have they done to you baby?" Harry whispers rocking me holding me tightly. 

I have no words to say because he knows exactly what they have done and why. I can't decipher who I want to know this from him or the team. It may seem right to just get the team to tell me but I don't know if I can keep myself together long enough to ask the questions I never thought I would need to ask anyone let alone my team. Wouldn't I still be a coward if I'm not brave enough to go see them for the first time since. 

I can't do it without Harry he gives me that serenity the total calm that makes me forget everything, the total calm that keeps everything else that way. He's the peace that needs to be made with myself and them. 

"Louis?" he says softly when I've made no sound but the tears still fall. 

I look at him my eyes still watery, my lips shaking, I turn around facing him. He looks at me with a soft look, ones that tell me he's truly in love with me because he never looks anyone like that. I kiss him passionately, slowly, and carefully. He hands travel to my neck he thumbs caressing my cheeks. As the kiss turns into a slow make out.