The VILLE

7

It's almost 3 years since I had Sophia. She's going to be 3 in two days. I looked at her as she was sleeping and looking through old pictures of her when she was a small baby

I didn't want to wake her up just yet so I let her sleep a little longer. I went to my room and put my college books in my bag. It had just finished my second year of college going on to my third pretty soon. My brother was making big money with football that he moved us out to crystal springs in a rich neighborhood. I went downstairs and my sister was coming inside with the mail. She was looking through I when she stopped when she came across one. I asked her if there was any mail for me because I was waiting to hear from the internship I applied for. She looked at me and gave me an envelope.  I didn't even have time to see what it was about when I heard my love bug coming down the stairs. She went running to my brother and gave him so many kisses. I smiled and gave her a kiss. Me and Rebecca went to the kitchen to make breakfasts for them. I could hear my brother and Sophia laughing as they watched cartoons together. I had set the envelope down on the counter when I was mixing the pancake mix and then I seen his name in it. Brandon Williams. I stopped and my sister told me she'd take over. I looked at her and then grabbed the envelope and went upstairs to my room. I sat at the edge of my bed and stared at it thinking if I should open it or not. I opened it  and read:

Jayla,

I've been thinking a lot if I should write you or not. I'm sure you want nothing to do with me but I just been thinking a lot about you. I miss you Jayla. I know I'm not right and should leave you alone but I just felt the need to explain to you a lot of things. I think back to that day my whole life changed. I regret it everyday. I regret hurting you like that and destroying my whole life. I wish I could take everything back. The day it all went down I was so angry. I was so angry for my fam, the people who I called my brothers. They're dead because of your brother. I was there watching everything happen and I couldn't even do anything about it. I just stood there and did nothin. I said maybe if I got close to his sister and make her fall in love with me i could get to him. But to be honest Jayla, I fell for my own trap. I feel in love with you and I wish I could of told you sooner, I didn't say it but I meant to say it everyday. I think about the love we made. I miss your skin Jayla but I know what I did will never get you back. I spent a lot of time in here thinking what could of been if I didn't do what I did that day. The family we could of had, make you my wife. I think about that a lot but I know that would never happen now. I look back and remember your smile, you looked beautiful all the time. I heard your brother eddie made it into the big leagues too, I hope your striving to do your best baby, you got talent and I want you to strive ! I want you to show the potential you have! Do you and be successful. I pray for your family everyday. Promise me you'll find a man worthy of your love, but promise me you'll strive to be the greatest you can be!!

Love always,
Brandon Williams.

I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't stop crying at all. My lovebug ran in my room and asked me why I was crying. I told her I just didn't want her to grow up anymore because it made me sad and she looked at me funny telling me I was silly because she had too. She told me it was time for breakfasts and I told her I'd be there in a minute. She ran down the stairs and I tried to hide my tears. I put the letter in my Safe and went downstairs to join them. My sister looked at me and smiled. I smiled back and say down to eat breakfast.