Najah
I walked through the double doors of the church, I sighed.
My stomach was poking out a bit more. My eyes were swollen and puffy my feet hurt, my back hurt, and my head hurt.
I seen everybody was here. I shifted uncomfortable when people started staring at me. I went to sit by pinky and her sisters and they og.
"Najah" pinky tapped me, I looked up. "Yeah?" My voice came out all raspy
"I found this in L'a room" she dropped something in my hand. I bit my lip as I looked down at the chain.
"You ok?" She asked
"Ima just go to the bathroom" I closed my eyes for a minute then got up. I walked out the room around the corner and seeing all the L's chilling in that room right in front of the bathroom. I sped pass them, and closed the door quick. Before emptying everything out in the toilet, I flushed the toilet slipping a peice of gum in my mouth.
I pulled my shirt up rubbing my stomach, I can feel his lips on my stomach from the last time he kissed my stomach.
A tear fell down my face. I bent over slowly tying my black timberlands. I sighed, putting the chain in my purse.
I walked out, "can I wear these?" I grabbed fredo glasses
"Yeah" he said
"Najah come here" rondo said standing in the doorway, "aye it's starting" he told the boys
He grabbed my hand, he led me to the front. He sat down and pulled gotti on his lap.
They started singing,...
I put my elbows on my knees. I bit my lip, his momma start talking and shit.
"Now his girlfriend najah would come up and do the eulogy" she said
I sighed, standing up. "Uh hi" I said adjusting the sun glasses on my face.
"Youuu madd!" I said in L'a face. "Gone bruh" he mugged me back
"I think your mad" I said
"Leave me alone" he said
"You must be mad" I started dancing in his face.
"Get yo goofy ass on" he said he couldn't hold his laugh making me smile.
"L'a was my first everything. I mean my first boyfriend first everything" I said
"And I never thought I would be standing here" I leaned on the podium as tears fell down my eyes
"Words can't explain how I feel, ion wanna see my boyfriend get buried today" I shook my head
"L'a that was my lil baby right there. He told me he wasn't gone let nobody else hurt me. But this right here hurt me the most. Before h-he left to the studio he was dropping me off"
"Where u fina go?" I asked L'a when he pulled up to my house
"The studio with Armani" he said
"Why cant u just stay with me?" I whined
"I shoulda made him stay with me. I could feel it, like something wasn't right. I even told his momma something ain right"
"And he thought I was just tripping cause I'm pregnant" I said catching some people who didn't know off gaurd.
"But I made him promise me, back to back. That he was gone be safe, and that I wasn't gone see him on the news" I hiccupped
"He was so annoying though, like I fr used to think he got problems" I laughed lightly, earning a few laughs.
"U not cute" he said looking at me, "I missed you though I ain see u in forever" I said sitting by 22
"I missed you to" he turned back to the screen
"I know he would have been an amazing dad to" I said as tears fell nonstop
"I can't believe I'm fina be a daddy" he leaned back
"U been my daddy" I said he laughed licking his lips
"But I'm low-key excited tho" he added
"U can't have another L'a, it was and will always be one
L'a he irreplaceable" I said breaking down. I couldn't do it everything was becoming overwhelming. "U did good come on" dot grabbed my hand. Leading me down the steps, once we was walking pass l'a casket I snatched my hand going to l'a casket. I took my glasses off this was so unreal. I went in My purse pulling out the sonograms. I placed them in l'a hand. Kissing him, I was full blown sobbing. "It's gone be okay nani" rondo rubbed my back.
"Let him go" gotti said
"Ion wanna let him go" I cried
"What I tell u about walking by yourself when u carrying my son" he said he pulled me closer
"What makes u think it's a boy?" I asked smirking
"Cause I know" he said
"I think it's gone be a girl" I said
"L'a what they do to you?" I sobbed
"Nani come on" rondo tried pulling me
"Ion wanna leave him" I said looking at rondo through my tears
"Okay" he pulled me into him walking out the room. He walked me in the bathroom, I just realized he was crying to.
"Rondo u ain never gone leave me right?" I looked through my tears at him
"Never " he coughed
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Sooooo
I love yall
Y'all should go read this good ass trill Sammy fan fic he bae all the way... it was written by shorty Xannny it's lit tho
