From that day on - spoby

Part 43

Spencer's POV

I walk walked out the door with Em and was greeted by the others sitting in the car out front. They all smiled and waved and I couldn't help  but smile.

I jumped in the back next to aria and she gave a quick small awkward car hug and I gave a quick smile.

"Will you guys please tell me were we are going ?" I asked

"Haha as much as you ask were not going to say anything". Said Hanna

I settled down into the seat more to relax.
All I could think about was Tobyk he was the only person ever on my mind, even if he isn't thinking about me. I have never loved someone like I loved him, he was my first true love and he hurt me so bad. Even after everything I still think I would forgive him. He doesn't deserve me and he never will but he will always be someone I would easily run back to and I honestly think I will love him for my whole life. He chose her over me, if only he knew how much more I cared. I was nicer then she ever was and he was to blind to see it. I wish he would wake up and relise I was the one and always have been. I spend every night upset about everything that has happened. I feel used, I try to pretend he doesn't exist when in my thoughts he is the only thing that does exists. I'm angry at myself for getting so attached when he could never promise anything. I fell to hard and no I'm the one with nothing. I feel empty and unwanted, I wouldn't want any one but him. I love him with every inch of me, I wish that one day he will feel the same. He was my other half. I truly understood him. He was never that good with friends, I was always there but now its like I never exsisted. He now ignores me, when hes the only person I honestly want to see every second of the day. This feeling feels like it will never go, it makes me feel like there is no point in trying or bothering ever again. He has destroyed me and he doesn't even have a clue...