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You glanced down at Lucas once more, examining his arms. He's really having a bad time, isn't he? You though. You then tried to get look at his face, but he covered it with his hands. You could perfectly see he was crying though, and this made your heart break.

You wanted to ask him why he began cutting himself, but it wasn't the time or place to do so. You just sat there, watching Lucas fell apart.

You attempted to wrap your arms around him, but for some reason you couldn't move your entire body. You tried to sooth him, but no possible words came to your mind.

"You can go now." You heard Lucas mumbling.

"I'm not leaving you... And... and... you are not gross!" You exclaimed at the verge of tears, "You are not gross, I...! I..."

"Ness. You don't have to be here anymore. Don't force yourself. Leave."

"I won't."

"Leave."

"No."

"... Ness."

You finally got a hold of yourself and hugged Lucas. You let your feelings take over again, which was weird because you've never been an emotional person. You pulled Lucas' hands off his face, and you then held them quite firmly. Then you lightly pressedyour
lips on Lucas' forehead. This make the blonde one blush, and he quickly stopped crying. You smiled at him, reassuring everything was okay. Itmust have been strange having someone figuring out you cut yourself. You understood Lucas may had felt scared that someone knew what he had done to his body. Scared that you felt disgusted by it, and just left him behind. He didn't have his mother by his side anymore. His brother was far, far away, and his father was nowhere to be seen. You felt kind of sorry because of these things.

"Thank you." He whispered.

"No problem." You whispered back, ruffling his hair.

Then, Lucas smiled at you, and you were ten thousand percent sure that that smile changed your entire life. You then knew something about Lucas. You knew he was struggling alone. But not anymore. You were going to do everything you knew in order to see that smile of his again.

To make your heart flatter even more, Lucas then hugged you.

You were still kind of shocked by all of the things happening, but you just brushed that feeling off temporarily.

You watched the wall clock on the room, 7:30 pm.

"Lucas... it's quite late. Are you hungry?" You asked him.

"K-kind of."

"Alright. Um... what if I order a pizza?"

"mhm."

You both waited for the pizza to arrive, and then you both ate it. Minutes later, your mother phoned you, asking where you were. You told her you were at a friend's house and that you'll be home soon.

You packed your things, and told Lucas he had to leave. You asked him if he was going to be okay. He nodded, and then you gave him your cellphone number, telling him to call or message you if he needed it.

You got home safe, and then decided to do homework. Then you took a bath, put on your pajamas and laid on your bed. Your phone vibrated, and you grabbed it from your nightstand looking who had sent you a message: it was Lucas, apparently. Or at least you hoped so.

[Unregistered Number]: Ness.

you: yes? Who's this?

10 minutes later came another reply.

[Unregistered Number]: Lucas.

You felt excited for a moment. Lucas was actually texting you. You never thought he was going to do so. You grinned, completely full with happiness as registered his number, and then replied.

you: oh! Lucas, hi!

Lucas: hi.

you: what's up?

you sent, hoping he would be alright, and not texting you because something horrible happened to he. You were kind of scared.

Lucas: not much.

you: Why so?

Lucas: I don't know.

you: oh, alright. are you okay?

Lucas: yes.

You: are you 100% sure? Is your dad home?

Lucas: yes, I'm sure. My dad's not here.

You: why?

Lucas then stopped replying for a good 20 minutes.

Lucas: he went on a trip.

You: oh... okay. why did you texted me?

Lucas: i wanted to talk to you. am i disrupting you? I can stop if you want.

You: no, you're not. i like talking to you.

Lucas: okay.

You: so... what are you doing right now?

Lucas: thinking.

You: about what?

Lucas: you.

You felt your heart stopping for a minute. He was thinking about you. You felt happy, ever so happy! Lucas... He was actually thinking of you. You spent the following 5 minutes thinking about how happy you were because you that simple message. You didn't even realized that you hadn't reply to Lucas until he sent you another text.

Lucas: sorry if that creeped you out.

You: no! no! it didn't! trust me. your message actually made me happy.

Lucas: okay.

You: it's 10:40, you should get some sleep.

Lucas: okay. gn.

You started to doze off quickly, dedicating your day's last thoughts to Lucas. After all, you knew you liked him.

You were sleeping soundly until you heard your phone vibrating once again.

3:50 am.

Another message from Lucas.

Lucas: nEss hlp

You noticed he was typing erratically. This made you worry.

You: lucas! what happens? are you okay? do you need me to go to hour house?

Lucas: cant sleep. thats all. im kindA tired but i canT sleep. having nightmares bout mOm.

This made you feel bad. You really wanted to help Lucas, but how? Gosh, it's just so hard.

You sat there for quite a lot of time, thinking about what to tell Lucas. It was then you received another message.

Lucas: Ness please