Different(Destiel/Sabriel highschool au)

Please Dont Kill Me and The Actual Date

Trigger warning:self harm and self battering/suicidal thoughts
This chapter is dedicated to @Samantha1956 for being the first person to ever vote on this story, thanks!
I SHOULD UPDATE MORE OFTEN, MAYBE THEN I WOULD ACTUALLY HAVE READERS. THIS JUST NOW DAWNED ON ME.
Cas's POV
I got home and for the first time in a while I felt good. I ate a small snack and made my way up to my room where I flopped onto my bed and smiled.
Dean Winchester. Castiel Winchester? Dean Novak?
Stop.
A quiet voice in my head stopped my fantasies.
He's straight.
But questioning.
And? You do remember what mirrors look like, yeah? Why would he like you. You barely even know him. God, someone pays the slightest bit of attention to you and you fall. How pathetic can you get?
I tried to stop the voice in my head but gave up. It always won out anyways, the scars proved that much. I stood up and got undressed, I changed into a long sleeved black shirt and some sweats and walked into my bathroom.
My lack of sleep was evident and my hair was knotted and went in all directions. Disgusting. You look like trash. The voice snarled mercilessly.
I glanced at my blade which was laying innocently on the side of the sink. Wow, you're feeling a little shitty so you go straight home crying to mommy. Boohoo you little bitch baby. Grow up. I sobbed silently as I picked up the blade and rolled up both sleeves.
It was strange. The physical pain had faded long ago and yet the mental pain was excruciating. But at the same time soothing like some kind of drug that I was a slave to.
I ran the blade along my skin until the thoughts faded into numbness and let the blood flow until it stopped.

This was just an average day in the Novak household.

When I finally managed to make my way to my bed it was 7:00pm and I had a text.
Where the hell were you today? You're gonna pay for this on Monday you little bitch.
Shit.
C:I'm so sorry sir but I had to show the new kid around today and I got distracted.

So did the little fag find a boyfriend? You better not forget again or you know what will just happen to slip into your biological father's grasp.

C:No sir, and I won't forget.

Goddammit, how had i forgotten?

Gabe's POV
I stood at the door to Ellen and bobby's house. I'd been here a million times but it felt so different somehow. Yeah, probably cause you're gonna shit yourself you're so nervous. True.
I rung the doorbell and waited.
The door opened to reveal a beautiful Sam Winchester in a red flannel and loosely fitted jeans. He looks nervous too until he spotted what was in my hands, he smiled and breathed out "perfect," letting out a little chuckle. We walked down the driveway and he offered me a piece of peppermint bark. I grinned and grabbed it with my teeth, the deep blush on his face was satisfying enough. "Let's get going" I said as I realized he was standing still.
When we got to my car I held the door open for him and he rolled his eyes, grinning all the while. I feel this is more Jared than Sam. Ughhhhh.
I got in on my side and began pulling out of the driveway when Sam finally asked where we were going, "the arcade." I responded grinning.

Time skip thang

We arrived at the arcade and I paid a small entrance fee before we started playing some games.
Sam beat me at dance, dance, revaluation. I beet Sam at a racing game(Sam blamed it on his short legs). He beat me at ski ball. He beat me in a shooting game. I beat him in a jackpot game. And he beat me at a basketball game.
It had been 2 hours before we decided to get some snacks, our prizes, and leave.
I felt cheesy about it but I gave Sam a small bear I had managed to win the tickets for and he gave me a large fluffy unicorn. I squealed.
Sams POV
I giggled as Gabe squealed at the stuffed unicorn I gave him. We drove home without many problems and we were on my front porch.
I smiled noticing Gabe and i's hands intertwined. I looked at his beautiful honey eyes and before I knew it we were leaning in. "Thank you," I mumbled breathily while looking at his lips through half lidded eyes. I only got a "mmhmm" before we kissed. It was short, soft and sweet. Just what you'd expect.
I blushed deeply and looked at my feet only to have gabe's fingers honhonhon lifting my chin to looks at him. "Thank you." He leaned in agin and this time the kiss was longer and deeper, the only reason we ever pulled apart was for breath. It wasn't a hot or heavy kiss. It was simple and gentle and yet still had us gasping for breath.
We pulled apart for good and I grinned, placing a final pec on gabe's lips before skipping into the house and walking up to my room. I couldn't wipe the grin off my face all night.
Ugh, I know, cheep and cheesy. But thas the way the peoples like it.
I'm sorry if the thoughts Cas was having were inconsistent with other cases of depression but I just used my own experiences and thoughts to model the ones for Cas.
Also, please don't kill me. Two chapters in one week, I'm feeling generous eh? I don't know guys I'm tired, I'm gonna go to sleep after I edit this.
Comment with any ideas, advice, or critique. I read everything. Everything.