"I love you. Please say it back"
- c.d
"No I can't love you,it's impossible"
- n.g
"Can you just give me a soft kiss? I won't disturb you again"
- c.d
"I hate you so fucking much,go away from my life"
- n.g
Cam's POV (at the hospital now); all of this happened because of me. ME. because being stupid at the wrong time. this is all my fault. i saw my own bestfriend..could barely breathe..because of me..almost dying. i lean against the wall,crying and screaming. this is not helping at all. i should just killed myself too. he's not guilty at all. i called nash's parents to come to the hospital.
- they arrived. they rushed to get in to see the doctor,but the doctor doesn't allow them to visit their son yet. i can see their tears shed their precious faces. i hate myself for being an useless human being. then,johnson texted me.
"bro,where you've been this whole day?"
"i'm at a hospital right now" i replied.
"dude,what just happened?!"
"nash..is at the hospital now. he..just got hit by a car.."
"what the hell?! i'm on my way now!"
"okay".
Author's POV; nash just got hit by a car,but that person didn't help him. cam's having a mental breakdown,he keeps crying whole day at the hospital.
"i hate myself. fucking kill me now. fuck fuck..fuck this" cam said as he running to go out from the hospital. johnson arrived and asked cam sonething.
"where you goin?" johnson asked cam with a serious.
"i just need some time to be alone" he cried.
Cam's POV; i just need some time to be alone. ALONE. because i'm such a useless faggot. nash almost died because of me.
- i go to this quiet place. it's so beautiful and the view is so breathtaking. i get out from my car to enjoy the view and release my tension. i take a cigarette and lighter from my hoodie. (a/n - i know this is bad,but well :'). yeah,i smoke. but not everytime,i only smoke when i feel sad. i wish that i can taste nash just like i taste this cigarette.
"cameron,the fuck you're doing?" i hear a voice from behind. oh,it's matt. i haven't seen him for a long time since we broke up. (A/n - yas they were couple before but broke up for some reason) . my tears fell from my eye when i see him. i hugged him tightly.
"matt.. i miss you so much.. i did..nothing here" i said with a shaking tone.
"oh cam. i miss you too.. but why you're smoking?" he asked me curiously as he kissed my cheek.
"i'm sad. for some reason. something happened,,because of my stupidity" i said quietly.
"tell me cam. i will listen to your confession" he gives me a little smile.
"my bestfriend. nash. he.. got hit..b-by a car.. after i confess my feeling to him" i said.
"oh.. i see.. how's his condition now?" he said to me but he's looking at somewhere else. he sounds like he's about to cry when i said that.
"bad..so bad" i said as my tears keep falling down from my eyes. he doesn't say anything but just nodded.
"actually i-" he paused.
"what is it,matt?"
"i still love you even though we're nothing now. it really hurts me when you suddenly wanted to break up with me for no reason" he started to cry as his voice cracked. i surprised by what just he said to me.
"no. you should find someone that's better than me. look at me now. i look bad,i smoked,i drank beer,i-" he puts his finger to my mouth to shh me.
"shut up. you still look good and hot like you used to. i don't care if you smoked,drunk or maybe you smoke weed too. you are you. cam is cam. you're still my cam. nothing's different about it" he smiled. his words,him. he comfort me. i feel loved. nobody loved me like matt loves me,but yeah,we're nothing. to be honest,i still love him,but i do love nash too. i broke up with him because i don't want my mom to know. sierra can't accept the truth at first,but time heals.
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"haha remember this pic" he chuckled.
"yes..we look so cute here haha" i laughed.
"good time" he sighed.
is it bad that i might be in love with matt again?
is it bad to return with your ex again after what happened?
am i love with this feeling? i want to escape from this feeling.
but i miss his soft lips,i wanna touch his fluffy hair again. oh my god,is my decision wrong? i don't wanna live in this complicated life anymore.
Aye guys! this chapter is like filler i think. i know my ff is quite complicated af. but read,vote & comment your opinion. and thanks for 200+ readers! ilygsm 😘
