Beautiful Boy

Chapter 6

Today. Today is the day I am planning on telling my maknae how much I love him. I was waiting in our room to tell him right before bed, but I kinda got anxious.

Jungkook POV

I was in the bathroom, looking at my reflection. My eyes are ugly, my hands are too small, my stomach is too fat, my thighs are humongous. I am just.... Disgusting to look at. I look at the razor on the sink, next to my hand. Should I? I could end everything, the weird feeling I get when I'm next to Suga hyung, the stares from our fans... Just..... End....everything. As I'm about to cut horizontally, the door opens and I stand there like a deer in the headlights.

"Jungkook what's -" I hear my hyung's voice saying. "Kookie? What are you doing with a razor next to your skin?" I just look down, ashamed of myself. I can't even ruin my life properly. I look up, seeing Suga got closer to me to take the razor away.

As soon as he put it down, I whined, pulling him to me for a hug and let the tears finally come out.

"I love you," I hear Suga whisper in my ear. I smile happily, but then realize that he just pities me and that's why he is so caring. He doesn't love me. Who would love a screwed up person like me?