Misha Collins x reader

I'm sorry

When you woke up Misha was crying besides you holding your hand. You looked around Jensen was asleep in the corner and Jared was asleep by the door. Your boys had come to stay with you, wait why were you at the hospital?
"M-Misha?" You coughed
"Y/n? Oh my god you're ok." He said tears continuing to flow down his face.
"What's wrong why am I in the hospital?"
He looked at you and sighed, he wiped away some tears and looked down at his feet.
"Y-you had a miscarriage. Your body wasn't reacting greatly to holding a child, so close to when your body shut itself down. They tried everything." The tears started flowing down your face.
"I-I don't know what to say." You said looking down holding your legs to your chest. Misha held you as you cried.

It had been a few weeks since you had the miscarriage and it had been hell. You had barely eaten it looked like you were starving yourself. Which you didn't think you were it just was that.. You weren't hungry.
"Come on babe eat something."
"I'm not hungry I'll eat soon."
"It's been eight hours."
"Ten." You mumbled under your breath.
"Stop it."
"What."
"Stop treating yourself like shit I'm sick and tired of it!"
"Well did you lose a kid! Did your body just decide that you weren't ready for your fist kid?! Did you make your significant other upset?! Did you.. Realize that I might not ever have kids?! I might never be able to have kids for you?!" You screamed at him.
"Are you guys going to break up?" West asked crying. You didn't realize he had walked into the room.
"I oh westy," Misha said walking over to him. You just walked past them. Knowing it was a terrible idea but you just wanted to be mad. You heard Maison crying in her room.
"Hey Maison are you okay?" You said peeking your head in her room.
"N-no."
"What's wrong honey." You said sitting down next to her on her bed.
"Are you and dad not going to be married anymore? Like my other mommy?"
"I-no no of course not unless your daddy wants to, mommies and daddies can fight but not get a divorce." She nodded and you wiped away her tears.
"Now how about you back to bed ok." You put her to bed and walked to you and Misha's room. You put on a t-shirt and sweats and sat on your bed reading when the door opened. West was standing there, "please don't leave daddy!" He cried running up to the bed.
"Oh sweetheart I would never leave your father I love him."
"Oh ok."
"Now it's past your bedtime go back to bed." He nodded and walked back to his room. You turned off the light and pulled the blanket over you. You rubbed your eyes. Maybe tomorrow I'll eat breakfast.
"I'm sorry." Misha said walking in sitting on the other side of the bed looking down at his hands. Did he think you were asleep? "You probably hate me if you were awake you'd kick me out. I just was stupid I made our kids think we were going to get a divorce. A divorce. I can't put them through that again. I just love you too much to do that. God I love you-"
"I love you too now goodnight." You said interrupting.