Oneshots

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Jungkook's POV

The same old feeling, the same heavy heart that I somehow manage to drag everywhere I go, he was no scratch that he is my life, but am I his?

Never got the answer to any of my questions about his feelings for me, I stopped trying after a while and I just learned to accept the fact that maybe I was just some kind of mistake he made one day, that what we shared that night didn't mean anything for him, but it sur did to me.

He took my everything, my heart, my attention, my first kiss, my first love, my touches, everything. So for that now I like to call him my everything, but he only had eyes for him, from the very start he only needed him, and I will never be him.

Now it hurts Everytime I see my best friend, cause I just realise how much he means to me and how much I need him by my side, I always wander does he feel the same? Maybe it isn't a one sided love after all? But then why does he only look at Hoseok? he tells me stories about how he enjoys his company and that he really likes him, but also why did he kiss me the other day, when I cried? Why does he always like to cuddle with me and make me feel special? He confuses me and I'm too in love with him to try and understand the why's and the how's.

On top of it all I was really tired of it all, I wanted closure. I wanted to know what he felt about me, I wanted to know things like why he took me on dates? Why he bought me a ring? Why he was always there when I cried laughed or even went to sleep? While on the other hand he never NEVER was there when I woke up.. he never held me like he loved me, at least I felt that way. I wanted this game to be over, I was tired of being emotionaly frustrated by him! It's been two years since this has been going on and I got to my limit I'm done.

I got up from my bed and texted Tae to meet me to talk and eat breakfast, he accepted and said he will be there in a few. I quickly took a shower and put on a random outfit, I didn't really care what I looked like, not today at least cause I was really determined to get answers and my mind isn't focused on picking up an outfit and being handsome.

Ten minutes later Tae bragged in my apartment and dragged me out muttering stuff in the lines of
' I'm really hungry' and ' get me food now' another ten minutes in the car and we were now sitting waiting for our food to arrive.

"So what did you want to talk about" Tae asked. I looked at him and took a deep breath so I can tell my mind.

"Taehyung I want closure" I said after seconds, he looked at me as if I had grown two heads but I kept on looking at him with the same determined look on my face. The waitress came and put our food and Tae started taking bites of his pancakes while I left mine untouched, few seconds later he looked up and smiled weakly at me.

"Jungkookie I don't really understand I thought you liked being my friend?" He said, well that's the thing friend.

"Friend? Was I really your friend ? Do you cuddle your friend ? Do you kiss them when they cry? Do you buy them promise rings? I don't think so Taehyung, and I have never seen you do this to anyone else" he just sat there listening to me trying not to miss any word I said and I was happy he was listening cause I needed this off my chest.

"But you never stopped talking about him, you told me you liked him but you acted like a boyfriend with me, I was hurt ! Hell I'm still hurt! Do you know what if feels like? I don't think you do! Being emotionaly played like this sucks Tae! I can't go on like this, this isn't good for me, I cry for you all the time, I fucking love you can't you see it" by the end of this I was crying Taehyung didn't move an inch, just started at me mouth agape and absent minded, when he closed his mouth and got back to his senses I had stopped crying and I was just looking at him sniffling every once in a while.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry jungkook oh my god I'm sorry!" Now it was his turn to cry he put his head on the table and sobbed even harder I got closer to him side hugging him and whispering sweet nothing to calm him down, he kept on apologising and i felt bad for telling him all that, but I felt relieved too.

Later on he stopped crying and looked up at me and hugged me, I was startled by his action but I didn't push him away I hugged him back, it might be our last hug I kept on thinking.

"I'm sorry jungkook I'll be better I'll do better I promise! I thought you knew I no longer liked Hoseok hyung, I thought I told you, when I gave you the rings I wished you can tell that I liked you, when I kissed you I felt like I was born to only do so, when I cuddled you I felt like you were made just for me, but I guess I should've told you, I should've been brave enough to tell you, but I wasn't and I hurt you and I made you cry, please forgive me kookie." He said still hugging me and I felt his tears wet my shirt as mine too fell free out of my eyes.

He loved me too.

"It's okay hyung, I forgive you"