I Wish Everything Would Be Alright (Justin Bieber, Jason McCann, One Direction)

9. That Kind Of Effect

Honey's POV

I looked at him. He was perfect. Why doesn't he...?

Me: why not?

Jason: as you can see, I have many rusted screws. One of them are my anger managements... another one of them are forgiveness. I can't forgive easily. And a different screw is love.

Me: define the forgiveness part.

Jason: I can't forgive anyone easily. That's why I can't love myself. I haven't forgiven myself, cupcake.

I sat up, wrapping myself with the blanket. Jason did, too.

Jason: I'm sorry about your past... I just... I can't forgive myself for not protecting you then.

Me: you didn't even know m-

Jason: and I can't forgive him. Sea

? I just... can't.

I sighed and looked at my hands.

Jason: I'm sorry...

I placed my pointing finger on Jason's chest where his heart should be located.

Me: then let me help you, Jay. Open that heart for me. I'll love you like no one else has. I'll show you how it feels to be loved. I'll show you how to love yourself. Jay, please.

Jason stared at me, with the softest eyes on earth. Nope, the universe.

Jason: you know what the problem is?

I shrugged.

Jason: don't get me wrong! you're a totally loveable person. But I've never tried to love you. I promise... I'll try.

I smiled. At least I tried.

Me: that's all I needed...!

Jason Lay back down again. I lay down next to him.

Jason: so... tell me about Liam!

I groaned. I was hoping he forgot about that.

Me: today... after I stitched him up... He confessed that he loves me.

I felt Jason stiffen again. And that instant, his muscles were flexed. Gah... I just died right here...

Me: stop with the fucking stiffening!

Jason: anyways... keep going...

Me: he asked if he could try something, and I let him. He kissed me. But I didn't... feel anything. He asked for entrance and I ran away.

Jason: oh...

He seemed thoughtful for a sec, but pointed to the sky.

Jason: SHOOTING STAR!

I looked up just as it disappeared.

Jason: make a wish, baby girl!

I closed my eyes. I wish I... I wish that... I wish everything's gonna be alright. I opened my eyes and looked at Jason.

Jason: what's your wish?

I smiled and showed that my lips were sealed.

Me: you do notice that we're in the middle of nowhere, naked and cuddling, right?

Jason chuckled.

Jason: then we'll do something else!

He got out a cigarette and put it in his mouth.

Jason: babe, do you smoke?

I shrugged. Jason put on in my mouth and I took it out.

Me: but not today. if my parents smell me...