Achilles' Heel (Haylor ll Prequel to Windows To The Soul & Ashes)

Chapter Five.

Every time I was about to fall asleep my demons chased me, they had familiar masks because they were faceless monsters so they used those masks to hurt me. I could see my parents, my old friends, and even Taylor.

Yes, Taylor. She was a beautiful demon and that wasn’t fair because it made her have some kind of control over me, that’s why it’s been days since the last day I saw her in her house.

This motel room was…cozy. Nah, I should stop lying to myself, it was fucking horrible but the truth is cockroaches are better company than my Mother.

At the moment, I was completely numb, I felt nothing and it was good I didn’t want to be worrying about stupid feelings.

Sometimes I wondered why I always had to be surrounded by demons, why couldn’t I have at least an angel by my side.

I was starting to feel frustrated, I ran my hand through my hair and grabbed my backpack, I wasn’t going to that stupid school today, I was going on an expedition by my own to clear my mind and my lungs. It was six o’clock in the morning and I was wondering how it was possible for me to get up that early just to go to a forest.

It was still dark outside and there weren’t many people in the streets, just some drunk man wobbling next to me.

The forest was far, but it was worth it, that forest was my favourite place to be at and it had been a while since the last time I visited it.

I had been two hours walking so far, the sun was up in the sky and I’ve seen a lot of people while walking. I saw people heading to school, a couple arguing and a father yelling at his son, I swear that when I saw that man yelling at that little kid my blood boiled, I can’t stand children but I also can’t stand parents who yell or insult their children, in fact, I would prefer being locked up in a room with kids than being completely free in a room with adults. Adults suck, they’re pretentious, boring and horrible, I will never be one of them.

The forest was farther than I remembered; I hadn’t even walked half of the way to get there.

As I walked I could hear the loud, deep and raspy voice of that man yelling at the kid, I didn’t know why I was over thinking it too much, but I was feeling bad for not doing something. That kid was so little I bet he was scared of the voice of his father, it was so aggressive. I would never yell at my son like that, but I wasn’t going to have children so I should say that I would never yell at my cat like that.

I saw a blonde girl that reminded me of Taylor, but she wasn’t her. She didn’t walk the way Taylor walked, she didn’t have those beautiful curls, she wasn’t smiling, Taylor always smiles and that’s great because people nowadays don’t smile enough.

People are simply too worried thinking about themselves and their flaws to smile, that’s sad.

But she always smiles, always. Unless I annoy her, I laughed when the thought of an annoyed Taylor came up in my mind.

Why the hell was I thinking about her, though? I shook my head and continued walking, I was getting closer to the forest and that was great, I needed to sit down and smoke.

Maybe I should’ve taken a bus.

I find it funny how there’s still this side of me that keeps telling me I should be at school, I have to get rid of that side and fast. I didn’t want to study, I didn’t want to be surrounded by fake people, I’m fine like this I don’t need to be another number in this society, I can learn things on my own. Music teaches me things that school doesn’t, important things.

I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve been told to behave, to go to school, to be just like everyone else. It tires me, it really does.

I finally arrived to the forest, it was just as beautiful as I remembered it. The trees were tall and the leaves were bright green, I felt free when I got deeper in the forest, there was no one there to bother me, no one to tell what to do or who to be, only me.

I kept walking and walking knowing that I wouldn’t get lost, I knew that forest like the palm of my hand.  I was looking for the river, it was huge and the sound of the water was soothing.

I found it after twenty minutes of walking through the forest, after dodging a few branches and almost falling three times, I found the huge river.

The sunbeams hit my eyes causing me to almost fall again, I huffed, I didn’t want to be so clumsy goddamn it.

I sat down and closed my eyes, I realized I was alone. I was completely alone here, I didn’t mind…Well I did, it’d be good to have someone to be there with me, but I guess I pushed people out of my life so that’s why no one wanted to come with me.

I heard a strange noise and I turned around. And, of course, it couldn’t be no one else other than that Tomlinson kid.

“Are you in love with me or something? ‘Cause you always seem to be chasing me,” I said as I got up from the ground.

“What the hell are you doing here?” he asked narrowing his eyes.

“No, what are you doing here?”

He rolled his eyes, and as he got closer to me I clenched my fists, if I had to beat the shit out of him again then I would.

“Look Styles, you better not come here again, this is my property,” he smirked.

What the hell? He thought it’s cool to own a forest? Okay it is, but it didn’t make him cool, he was still a stuck up daft.

“I will come here if I want to,” I said.

He laughed, it was a big sarcastic laugh and I hated it.

“I will call the police then,” he threatened.

He seriously thought I would back down; it was me who laughed then.

“Go ahead,” I stopped because I was laughing so hard now, “The police… are you serious?”

I kept laughing and I noticed that he got even closer, his jaw was clenched.

“Get the hell out of here!” He yelled.

I huffed and rolled my eyes; I didn’t feel like kicking his arse anyway so I picked up my bag and walked away from him.

He was so damn stupid, I know he lost his parents but it wasn’t my fault, it was theirs for not watching where they were going; now they’re underground. Who needs parents anyway? They’re plain annoying and useless and cruel to their children. No one needs parents, right...?