REISHAN
Habang nagmamaneho si Mom eh pasulyap sulyap lang siya sakin. Parang di siya mapakali.
"Mom? What's wrong?"
Ngumiti siya pero kapansin pansin parin na di siya mapakali.
"Sweetie. Be strong. You can forget him eventually. You need to get over him. I know you can. No matter what happens, I will always love you and accept whatever decisions you make."
I don't know why pero kinakabahan ako. Mom doesn't open conversations like this. Knowing Mom? She stays closemouthed at the end of the day.
" Hey Mom? What's wrong? Tell me."
She just answered me with a smile and a teary eyed.
I was about to wipe her tears when we pass through an under renovation part of the street. I notice that Mom is trying to stop the Car and I think from there I know the problem.
Break Failure
In the last turn Mom hugged me so tight. Tears started flowing and I wanna changed our positions but my seat belt and Mom's tight hug is stopping me.
"M-mom d-don't do this."
She just smiled at me before uttering the words I wanna hear forever.
"I love you sweetie"
Loud Crash. Great Impact. Blood. And my Mom's Grieve. Four things that make me Numb and unconcious.
'I love you too Mom, So much.'
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It's so painful. Too painful that it makes me numb.
Staring at her right now. I wanna hug her. So tight. But I can't.
I wanna cry... But I'm so drain.
I wish I notice it earlier. I wish...
Staring at her inside the casket .. kills me.
"A message from Mrs. Roselyn Guevarra's Daughter Ms. Rieshan Guevarra."
I went beside her casket and face the witnesses of this funeral. My Dad. My Brother. They're all crying so hard.
"She's--" Hindi pa ako nakakasimula ng tuluyan ng tumulo lahat ng luhang kanina ko pa gustong ilabas.
[Now Playing: Safe and Sound By TSwift]
"-- so brave... A-I wish -- *sobs* sana a- ako nalang *sobs" Unintentionally, Napaluhod nalang ako at umiyak. Iniyak ko lahat. Lahat lahat.
Andaya naman. Di pa nga ako nabubuo eh. Andaya mo naman eh. Ako nalang sana ..
Ako nalang ....
