Ambiguous fate

Chapter ten

Estella POV
I woke up and Kol wasn't in bed which was weird he would normally say a cocky comment or a innuendo.
Caroline and Elena want to have a girls day today, why do I need to go and hang out with them I don't even join in. I just mock them in my mind. 
I walk outside. Caroline and Elena are already sat on a blanket with cups of tea waiting for me.
"Hello Estella." Elena smiles at me. Obviously she is trying to get me to forgive her from the father incident. Honestly I don't care if it was ages ago, I will hold on to this grudge until I think it's necessary not to. I scowl at her.
"Seriously Ella what took you so long?" Caroline rhetorically asks.
"So Estella, Caroline is starting to have these thoughts about klaus." Elena says to me. I gesture for her to continue. "She thinks he has dreamy eyes and a sexy accent. I think she is falling in love..."
"I am not falling in love with klaus mikaelson!" Caroline protests.
"I don't think she is in love with him. I think she probably wants to have sex with him again, so she is finally noticing her attraction to him." I say.
Elena looks interested where as Caroline looks like someone smacked her across the face. But then Caroline actually looks interested and she says "I'm not going to deny that he is handsome. You've got to admit all three of them are handsome." She rambled on.
"What point are you trying to make Caroline?" I asked bored of this conversation.
"Well I might like klaus a little bit and that I don't want to because I don't know if I can trust him." She said sadly. "Well that's enough about me and klaus, Estella tell me about you and Kol." She said happily.
"There's nothing to say. We don't talk or hang out, we had sex on the wedding night and that is it." I bluntly stated.
"So you don't like him?" Caroline asked.
I was about to reply when Elena rudely interrupted.
"I'm so sorry but I promised Elijah I would go horse riding with him today. Goodbye Caroline and Estella please forgive me it was ages ago and I am so sorry."
I turned away from her and she sighed and walked away.
"You shouldn't be so hard on her. But anyway answer the question."
"I don't like him. I don't know him and plus he always looks at me weirdly like he is trying to read my thoughts." I said forgetting I was talking to Caroline.
"Estella." Caroline said and I immediately knew this conversation wasn't going to be something I liked. "You know you have never opened up to anyone. Nobody knows you really. Kol probably is trying to understand what is going on through your head because you're unpredictable and you're face tells a completely different story to your eyes. Maybe you should open up to him or someone else Estella because I can tell whatever it is going on I. There that it won't stay there for long. You should let it out before it forces it's way. And when it does it won't be pretty." Caroline looked at me with pleading eyes. Does she think a speech will make me open up and break down in front of her.
I stare at her.
"I just wish you would let me in, Estella." She hopelessly said.
"Be careful what you wish for, Caroline."
We sat in silence. I knew for a fact Caroline was trying to find a way to say what she was thinking. So I sat patiently waiting for her to blurt it out.
"Do you think I can trust Klaus?" She finally said. "It's just because he is being so nice lately but then he slept with the maid, he killed someone and he has a bad temper. But then he sends me gifts and heart warming paintings. What do you think I should do?"
"You know you can pull any face behind a mask. But be careful someone else might be pretending." I simply said in my opinion that explains everything, Caroline doesn't know klaus which side of him is his true self, the nice or the bad one.
Caroline stared at me and smiled brightly.
"Estella I love you so much. You always do give me the best answers. Maybe if I start speaking like you, you might starting taking my advice." She smiled at me and kissed my head before standing up. "Thanks for the talk Estella, enjoy the rest of the day."
I watched her walk away before laying down and staring at the sky. In my head all I can hear on repeat is "I look at myself and I see nothing that I like. Crowds don't make me happy, alone I don't feel right. So hold back the punches, there's no one let to fight. Take a look around you, there no one by your side." I wish it would just go away.