Now at this time and point in the relationship, things are getting hard. Its actually getting really hard. We haven't been together very long at all now, and we are already having problems, big problems. Its hard being in a relationship that your put in a position where you are hated and disliked by her family, and I am also in the position of not being able see her. Why does the world must judge us LGBT? I honestly don't know why they can't just see we are just like everyone else. We aren't better than anyone else and no one else is better than us. We are all the same. Who we fall in love with shouldn't matter. But in my case being a lesbian and being three years apart matter. Katie and I have been trying to get through this. But everyday its a struggle. I am sure it isn't only a struggle for me, but for her as well. I have never been in this type of relationship before so it is really hard on me. I have been trying my best, but no one will understand if they haven't been in this kind of situation. I am wiling to go to prison for her. I have been told they can get me for rape, but I was willing to go through all that for her, just to be with her. I was willing to stay by her side even though I couldn't see her. Yes it gets lonely. And yes I had gotten very lonely. Not being able to hold her, hug her, kiss her, hold her hand, or anything that involved us seeing one another. It had gotten to the point where we was arguing everyday. It was like we couldn't go a day without fussing. So yeah we started falling apart. We started going down hill. Yes after we argued we would apologize and be okay. But who knew you can say its okay but really your hurting the whole time. Because you will go through anything to be with her. You would throw your life away just to see her smile, I would die for her, and I would take a bullet for her and I wouldn't have to think twice. I miss looking into her eyes. And now the only eyes you can look into is your own standing in front of a mirror wondering what went wrong, and wondering why she is still with you when she can go be happy with someone she can see and actually have time with. But I also had to get my head that there very minute she was probably doing the same thing I was. We are falling apart...can we be fixed?
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Forever and Always
RomanceI was only 17 years old when my whole life started to change. But it all changed for the better. I fell in love with a girl, a young girl. They say age shouldn't matter when it comes to love, but in this case it does.
