Come Back To Me

Uneasy Feelings

I love you Levy

Those words ran through my mind a millions times a day. I would always answer I love you too Gajeel and now I couldn't. 

I cant believe he left me, but i cannot blame him either, its not his fault he died. Stupid Redfox. But I guess i'm a Redfox too now.

It had been months since the incident and every second of the day it flashed right before my eyes like it just happened. It is slowly tormenting me and slowing tearing me apart.

I stare around our room and before me is a stone fire place which is alight and crackling, when did i put that on? But Lily must have put it on. I can never remember my actions anymore.

above the fireplace is a large photo, of me and Gajeel, both in white. I was holding flowers and you could see both of our rings glistening on our fingers. We were both so happy that day.

"Here" Lily outstretched his paw and gave me a tissue 

"Why do I need this ?" My words came out soft and quite, this was probably the first time i had talked today. It was three fifteen already.

"Your crying again Levy" I then noticed the tears dropping onto the sheets, rather slowly then it quickened up, like rain.

"You cant keep doing this Levy" Lily's voice was soft and condoling "Its not good for them

I placed my hand onto my stomach, its only been two month since i found out, that was before the war .

"Are you hungry Levy?"

"No"

"You have to eat something, think about the child."

Most days were like this. Slow and depressing. Nothing will ever be the same again.

***

Lily had brought me some lasagna from the guild, anything Mira makes is delicious, yet my appetite did not come to me. I had to force the food down. Lily kept on telling me how i have to be strong for he child, I wanted to but i just didn't have the strength, i never had. Maybe if i wasn't so weak Gajeel would have been alive, its all my fault hes gone.

"Its no your fault." He could always read my mind, My face was too readable.Tears were now streaming down my face.

"You don't understand Lily" My voice was croaky from the lack of talking "I loved hi and I let him die, It eats at me every single day and i don't know how cope. I married him because i thought we were going to be together, we said till death do us part  yet we haven't parted, hes still with me haunting me."

"Levy..." Lily sat down beside me, I shouldn't be so selfish. They were best friends and all i'm thinking about is how i will cope.

Both of our head jolted towards the clicking sown at the door.

"I'll get it" I got got up and started walking towards the door wiping my tears off my face along the way "Its probably Jet and Droy or even Lucy."

I  opened the door rather fast, i wasn't too eager to see who was at the other side. A postman holding a small parcel that had a note on the top.

"umm.."He started to read his delivery card, probably to confirm who the parcel was for " Are you Mrs.Redfox ?"

"Yes i am" I could still feel where the tears touched my face.

"Well this is for you" He handed me over the parcel and the note and then he left. I walked back over to where i was sitting before and opened up the parcel first.

The parcel was small and it had been cushioned to protect whatever was placed inside it. Eagerly opened it to see what it was. As i unravelled the box inside laid a golden ring. Gajeel's Ring

I could already start to feel the tears forming in my eyes i scrambled around to get the letter and maybe that would explain who sent me this and why they did it.

My eyes scanned the not but only $ letters were inscribed on the ivory parchment 

I Love You Levy