Black Sheep

Chapter 5: A Letter to Leo

I ran as fast as I could down the hall. My head was spinning. I ran into the girls bathroom busting through the door, I bent over gasping for air as soon as I got in. I couldn't believe what I had just seen. I had began to feel sick to my stomach. I ran into a stall and leaned over the toilet. Tears began to uncontrollably roll down my face. The bell was now going off. I quickly wipped my face and walked into the hall. I rushed to my locker looking all around me like a paranoid animal hiding from its predators. Marlynn nor Dylan was nowhere to be found yet again. I got to my locker and grabbed my book's and rushed to my Chemistry class.

The day went by pretty fast. Before I knew it I was already in my last class of the day waiting for the dismissal bell. I was sketching in my journal. I couldn't help but think about what I had seen earlier. Marlynn was screwing Dylan. This was the same guy who took advantage of me when I was a 14 year old freshman. He was a sophomore, so was Marlynn. What was even more ironic was that he was screwing her in the same place he had  taken advantage of me at. I threw up a little in my mouth just thinking about it.

I kept trying to tell myself that maybe I didn't see what I thought I had seen. I was being indenial. I needed to be indenial.

At last the clock struck 3:00pm and the dismissal bell rang. I walked out the classroom along with everyone else and headed to the main entrance of my school. I was walking so fast I didn't even stop at my locker. I didn't need anything anyway. Well atleast I hope I didn't. At last I got to the main entrance and walked outside. Buses were beginning to line up. I seen my bus pull up so I walked to it and hopped on.

I sat in my usual seat , looking out the window. My eyes spotted Marlynn with Dylan.  I ducked down in my seat, enough where I could still see them. She was laughing and flirting with him, he was doing the same. I began to frown. Marlynn had to be the dumbest person I know. It doesn't take rocket science to see that he's not really interested. He never really showed her any attention after all this time he knew her so why now?  All he wanted was a piece of her pie. And that she gave him openly in a school closet. I shaked my head and looked away. Marlynn aboarded the bus along with her clique. I didn't even bother to look at her. I was so disgusted and disappointed in her that I couldn't even tolerate looking at  her. The bus finally pulled off.

As the bus pulled off I opened my book bag and took out my journal.  I liked to either sketch or write in my journal. This was my way to get my feelings and thoughts out. I don't like having them all balled up inside. I usually write or draw whatever comes to mind. No one has ever looked inside. I sketched a picture of my Father while driving home.

At last the bus pulled up to our house. I grabbed my journal and book bag and walked off the bus and into the house. My mom greeted us at the door. "Hey Marlynn and Luna how was school"? "It was great" Marlynn replied. I rolled my eyes at her response. "It was fine, got a lot of homework so I better go start" I said as I walked away quickly. I couldn't stand being in Marlynn presence any longer. I walked up the stairs and into my room. I closed the door behind me and dropped my book bag on my bed. I went to my mirror to tie my hair up. My curls were all over the place , I began to brush it a bit. I then put my hair in the most messy bun possible. I didn't care, I wasn't into the whole appearance thing. Then I changed out my clothes and into some comfortable ones.

I took my journal out my bag and sat at my table. I took some paper out and grabbed a pin. I had no idea about what I wanted to talk about. I never knew until I just began to write. I sat there gazing over the table thinking of something to write about. My eyes locked on a picture of my Father and I. I grabbed it and brought it closer to my face. All I could do was stare at it, before I knew it tears were rolling down my face. I missed him more than anything in this world. I'd give anything to get him back. I put the picture back and picked up my pin. I knew what I wanted to write about.

I titled it "A Letter to Leo".  I began writing. "Dear Dad, it's Luna.. I ask God everyday to show me a sign of you. To show me if you've made it Heaven. To show me if you hear and see my cries. There's not a day go by that I don't think about you or even look at a picture of you. I feel like my whole world ended the day an officer came and told us that a dunk driver hit you and killed you on your way to work.. I sit and reminisce about all the times I spent with you. You never looked for praises , you were never one to boast.  You just went on working for the ones you loved the most. Your dreams were seldom spoken, your words were very few, and most of the time your worries went unspoken too. You were always there my firm foundation through most of my storms of life, a sturdy hand to hold onto anytime of njght. My true friend I could turn to when times were good or bad, a true blessing in my life was truly you Dad. I miss you more than words can explain. Everyday I wish I could go back and keep you here. Because I know my life wouldn't be like this if you were here. All I want is to see you one last time and I can move on. Please.. Just one last talk or something. I Love you Leo Patterson ♡. Save me a spot next to you when it's my time to come..

             - Love your baby girl Luna ♡.

I wiped the tears away from my face.  I folded my letter and grabbed an envelope. I sealed it completely shut. I grabbed a balloon and blowed it up enough to where it could float. I grabbed some string and it wrapped it onto the balloon. Then I tied the envelope the string onto the balloon so the balloon was floating in the air with the envelope on it. I open my window and look outside. It had been raining, it was pretty cloudy and windy. I grabbed the balloon and hesitated. I took a deep breath and let the balloon go, it flew into the air. I watched the balloon fly high into the clouds. I watched it till I couldn't see it anymore. I shut the window and layed my head on it. The sun had came out and began to shine....

That's Chapter 5 my loves. If you enjoyed leave comments,  tell your friends and stay tuned!!!! Chapter 6 will be up soon.