Whispers and snickers from across the halls
Burns into my brain like the fire of a dying forest
It's dry in there, with a light spark factor
It's lighting up the depths of who I am
In flames the words can never come out
It singes my throat raw and cries who I have left to sleep
And that's never hard considering
I like the escape of the hard feat
There's barely any snow this November
And the stars are not shining tonight
a thick cloud covers the light of the moon
And I feel I'm as hollowed as the rotting log
What will I ever be when I hear what they think?
I know people say to stay strong
But do they even have the strength to care?
I cross the bridge to my house.
I hear voices laughing in the distance
Right behind me, they yell there painful words
I bite my lip to hold in the tears
Can't they just let me go?
You're not pretty, they say to me, with their perfect hair
You're not pretty at all, you know that
One kicks my stomach and spits in my face
You're lower than the dirt, the taunt
I cry and ask for them to stop
But that only gets them to the pinacle of their hatred
Where their anger at me looking different
All explodes into the ending of the forest
One gives a good punch to my stomach
I scream for everything that has ever happened to me
Then one pushes me off of the small bridge to the shallow water
And the pebbles dig into the skin of my back
The water is frozen, and I can't breathe
The air is knocked out of me and I can't move
The shorline six run down to me and laugh
Shoreline six or shorline sick?
I try to duck for the heel that bashes in on the side of my skull
Stars explode in my eyes
Why are they doing this to me?
Should I even try...
The foot kicks repeatedly and it hurts so bad
One sits on my face
The water streams around me, leaving scared
Is that all I'll ever be?
I get a good punch to the stomach
And a few words thrown into my face
I keep crying, the tears drowned away
And then one punches my jaw
Stop, stop, please, I think I say
But the water drowns out the sound of their laugh
It's so cold and alone now here
And I can barely think or breathe
I see blood on my shirt
Bruises blanketing my arms
And the sound of the shorline six beating me numb
Is overwhelming
Mom, mom, help, I croak
I feel like I'm dying now with nothing to hold on to
This is too far, why do they hate me?
They tell me to kill myself and now they're doing the deed
I can't walk or move or think
I want to die now, please, just let me stop feeling
Because everything I'm feeling is devoid of all love
Only sadness of the love lost
It comes in phases as they carry me to the other side
Of the other side of the bridge
And they beat me and claw and scratch
And it's so painful, it's terrifying
I'm scared of not breathing
But what kind of life is this?
I'm paralyzed, too beaten and broken to move
And they catch me everytime I make a sound
The words come just as hard
And I cry til nothing's left
My face is red and heating up
While the rest of my body is dead
Then the leader of the six takes my hand
She doesn't get me back up
She pushes me face first into the cold stream water
Shoves the pebbles down my throat
I try to struggle on instinct
But it's torture waiting to die alone in this cold place
I'm all choked up, my throat, my head, me
And I feel nothing
As the water blocks in my lungs
and there is no more air in any sense
Did I have any air before, I ask myself, waiting
Just waiting for the pain to end
I hear them walk away
And then
I want my family, I want my mommy and daddy
I don't care anymore I want to be at home and away from all this
And five seconds later after my struggles stop
I am away from all this
And the blackness is the one that drowns me
