now (harry styles)

prologue

life gave us choices but sometimes we are forced to choose what we don't like.my life has been this way from the day i was born my parents choosing for me,my parents deciding for me, my parents saying what i should say they are taking over my life that i should lead it's like i am the captain but my ship had been kidnapped by two pirates and they're sealing with it and i can do nothing cause i am tied up the feeling of being tied up is always there until the day that i was released from my parents  to be tied up by the commitment they made for me.
every girl's dream is the moment where she will walk down the aisle to meet the boy who they've made a decision to live together forever and only the death can separate them but my dreams were different my dreams were big,enormous my dreams were alive they included traveling around the word,exploring,living an adventurous life winning and oscar or even be the first to invent something that even Steve jobs dodn't think about why no!  but my parents had the same stranded dreams as every girl in the world they're waiting for the moment that i will walk down the aisle with that special boy. mom was only 17 years old when she's got engaged with my father she was so happy and sure they love each other so much till this day they decided that they are ready for this and she want me to do the same thing bedside the fact that my parents are controlling my life mom wants me to be the other copy of her i should do the things she did at my age wear the things that she wore when she was my age. me i wasn't ready and i have feelings for no one . i've never thought of the feeling or word love it's a weird and a foreigner feeling for me  i think that it takes courage  to say those three words that people seem to be so familiar with they say it all the time and to anyone, love had become an easy and a contagious feeling for people but in fact it's difficult to find and difficult to feel and that is why i am afraid of mariage what if you suddenly stop loving him and vice versa what if the flames between you two are blown up with the wind like they say  it's like eating the same plate everyday, marriage is simply not my thing.