This Ain't Love Babygirl.

"I Don't Know Right Now"

Marcia's POV

I pulled into my mom's driveway. I grabbed my stuff and walked up to the house. I pulled the spare key out of my purse. I walked in and down the hall to my room, it was still set up how it was when I was in high school. I started putting my clothes and shoes away. When I was done I laid down on my bed, the stuff that just happened with Donovan was racing thru my mind. The messages between him and those girls were just flashing in my mind, I couldn't help but cry. My heart felt like it had sunk down to my stomach, me and him had a few years under our belt and now it felt like nothing was there or left to show. Donovan is my everything, but I can't go back like everything is ok knowing its not, I have to be strong this time.

I was staring blankly at the wall when I heard keys in the front door. I got up and wiped my face. I walked down the hall to the living room. My sister M'riya was home, she still lived with our mom (she was 2 years younger than me).

Me-"Where my niece at?"'

M'riya-"She in her crib."

I walked into the living room and grabbed her out of her playpen, I walked back in the kitchen with her. My sister was putting groceries away paying us no mind. Eventually she paused and looked at me.

M'riya-"Wait... why you here? Mama ain't here."

Me-"I know I just wanted to see y'all."

M'riya looked at me like I wasn't speaking English. She came over and grabbed Imani out of my hands, setting her in her high chair.

M'riya-"Uh uh, wassup with you, why you really here?"

All I could do was look at her because if I would've spoke I would've broke down crying.

M'riya-"So you can't speak now?"

I looked away, rubbing my thigh.

M'riya-"Wait... don't tell me its.... oh baby come here."

As soon as she wrapped her arms around me I burst into tears. I hid my face in my hands. She squeezed me tight and rubbed my back.

Me-"He.. heee... heee..... was cheating on me....wi... wiiith 3 other girls."

She laid her head down on mine.

M'riya-"I know it hurts but don't let this bring you down."

M'riya only liked Donovan when we were good but if me and him were fighting or he did some dumb shit to hurt me, she didn't like him.

I picked my head up, my makeup all runny now.

Me-"But its like we been together since we were juniors....We 21 now like.... what the fuck."

M'riya-"Marcia he been hurtin you, it wasn't never none major but now its real, honestly he just a dog."

I wiped my eyes attempting to stop the tears from falling down. Once I was a little more calm M'riya hugged me again.

M'riya-"You don't need him, you too pretty."

I got up from the chair and walked to my room. I picked up my phone.... no missed call, no text, no nothing. Maybe this really was the end of me and Donovan. There was a knock at my door, it was M'riya.

M'riya-"He said anything?"

Me-"No....'

M'riya-"Are you gonna get back with him?"

Me-"I don't know right now...."

Donovan's POV

It was about 9:30, I had just woke up. I walked into the bathroom, I looked at my eye, everything looked normal. I went over to my phone, no missed call, no text.....none. I threw it back on the bed. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a soda. I sat on the couch and turned on the tv. I sat there for a min blankly looking at the screen. I looked over at a picture that was hanging on the wall. It was me and Marcia from when we took a trip to L.A last year. I got up and grabbed my phone. "Aye Xavier.... Ima popout tonight."

I hopped in the shower and washed myself off. When I got out I got dressed. I called my Xavier to see where he was, he was at this house party at his cousin's house. I pulled up and their was hella people in the front yard. I walked and was pushing my way thru hella people. I finally found Xavier by the hookah pipe.

Xavier-"Wassup nigga, glad to see you stepped out."

Me-"Shit, I'm glad too, look like you got all the bad ones in here."

Xavier-"Maan, you know how it is when you rockin dolo."

Xavier passed the pipe over to me, I inhaled and exhaled a few times and it felt I forgot everything.

I walked away from the group and into the kitchen. I poured me some to drink, I took a couple sips when I felt someone tap on my arm.

??-"Long time no see"

I set my drink down and looked to the right of me.

Me-"Tia?? TyTia Smith?"

Tia-"In the flesh" *giggles*

Me-"How you been? I haven't seen you since you left Senior year."

Tia-"I been good, I enrolled to a college in California, I'm almost about to graduate, how bout you?"

Me-"I work for my dads company that's doing really good, I've got my own place."

Tia-"How about that girl you were so in love with.... whats her name..?

Me-"Marcia."

Tia-"Yes Marcia Conley.... how are y'all?"

Me- "Uhh we still together.... sorta..... not really at the moment."

Tia-"Dang, I'm sorry to hear that. Y'all were so cute what happened?"

Me-"Just... its like.... we just.... we ar-"

Tia-"Do you wanna go somewhere and talk about it?"

I rubbed the back of my neck, if I left with Tytia word would get around to Marcia and then we might actually be done for good and I wasn't ready to lose Marcia for good, but then again she hasn't called me or anything and I could be missing out on this opportunity.

Tia-"Donovan? You good?"

Me-"Uh yea, I'm fine..."

Tia-"So do you wanna go?"

Me-"Yea c'mon."