"Hey we are not walking, especially not in these shoes" Sara said
"Well what do you suppose we do?" I asked her
"Well I called your little boy toy Kycer and he's coming to pick us up" said Sara
"How did you get his number?" I asked confused and possibly jealous
"Don't worry your little head about that" she said
Before I could say anything else Kycer pulled up with Kartir in the passenger seat
I saw him look at me wide eyed and then to Sara...he was staring, I don't know why but I felt jealously and anger and betrayal I know I shouldn't, she doesn't know I like him, he doesn't know I like him, hell I don't even know if I like him ... This is why I can't catch feeling, they hurt me, damn it Kartir you put those thoughts in my head that he actually liked me, how could anyone ever like me?
Speaking of Kartir after Sara said "you like what you see" and Kycer responded with a "yeah" Kartir looked at him like he was crazy...and back to me a look of confusion on his face
"Guys I uh I think I'm going to skip this one" I said , I didn't want to see Kycer all over anyone and I didn't want to babysit Dylan and Sara after they get drunk off their asses...lightweights...
"What why?" Sara asked me
"I'm just not feeling it" I replied
"Hey Blake, can I talk to you for a minute?" Kartir asked shocking everyone
"Umm ok?" I asked it sounding more like a question
He jumped out of the truck and grabbed my arm and pulled me over to the side of the house
"Look, please don't bail because of Kycer" he said
How did he know that?!
"What, why do you thin-" I started
"No, ok it's obvious your lying, I live with four sisters I'm very keen with this stuff" he said
"I don't know what's up with him, the way he looked at you at the park, he never looked at anyone like that, I don't know what he's thinking right now but Blake he likes you, I know it" he said
"Stop telling me this, obviously he doesn't, and I honestly don't give a fuck whether or not he fucks Sara or Dylan or the fucking Grass I don't give a fuck about him, hell I don't even know him" I whisper shouted
"I can't let anyone else in..." I started
"After everything I-I" before I could finish he pulled me into a hug and I let the dam of tears break, I was a mess
I guess I brought more attention that expected when Dylan, Sara, and Kycer came over
"What's wrong Blake?" Sara and Dylan asked concern on their faces
"You all need to go, have fun at the party I'll be ok I just need my thoughts right now" I said to them running off into the dark streets away from my house, I ran all the way to the skate park , my safe place
I sat down on a bench across from the ramps and looked up to the sky
"Bubba, if you can hear me, I could really use your help right now, I don't remember much of you but mom always said you were the best at giving advice so tell me what to do here...I can't let them in, I can't let him hurt me like ... Like Sphen did...I can't let anyone know about that...only you, not mom, dad, Dylan or Sara...I just wanna disappear for a while straighten my life out, I can't be mad at Sara and Dylan, they are all I have, I love them no matter what they do" I said up to the night sky
"Just...just help Me" I finished
A/N-I know, I know sad/depressing chapter but I needed some drama. Don't hate me!!
~Diddles 💙
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RomanceI fell in love with a skater who always wore his Vans anywhere he went. Blake Taylor, a normal 14 year old girl who never let anyone in except her best friends didn't think she would ever find anyone that is until she met the boy that always wore Va...
