30th Day Of February

Prologue

*heavy breathing*

Sweat running down my face, I could hardly catch my breathe. Damn anxiety attacks.

I was gripping his shirt like my life depended on it. It's like I don't want want to lose him ever again.

He didn't seem to mind as we nuzzled in each others arms. Instead, he even encircled his arms around.

Tighter and tighter every second.

And just like that, it left me speechless.

What can I do?

We needed each other.

...

We stayed there for several minutes...or hours?

It didn't seem to matter anymore.

As long as we're together.

Together... haha

I could have laughed at the sound of that.

But this is another matter.

This is different.

Kind of?

I don't know anymore.

All I know is that I need this right now. I badly needed this.

I might as well treasure this moment. Why?

*Sighs* this might be the last though.

...

While my eyes are closed, I listen to the sound of his breathing.

It was so calm that little by little, it's drowning me to darkness.

Not yet.

No...not..yet

N-no..I don' wanna go yet...please..let me...live one more time...

I feel my feet slowly going numb. So, this is it..

But atleast I got to see you like this huh?

I got to feel you, to hold you, to be with you... one last time?

O-one last time... haha

This is so epic that I'm dying inside...well literally...and, you're so soundly asleep.

I couldn't even get to say good bye...

Slowly, I gather all my remaining strength.

I open my eyes..

I reach for his face...

I ran my fingers through his hair...so soft... just like how it's used to be.

Hmmpf...be a good boy okay?

I love you... so, so so much.

Very very much...

How I wish that I could say that to you. H-how, I wish...

I-i l-love you, o-okay?

I pull myself upwards, reaching for the top of his nose.

I slowly laid a quick peck at it.

At last, I get to go peacefully.

I held him closer... I close my eyes...

A tear escaped...

I was drowned into darkness.

Bye... I smiled faintly.