in 3rd grade, a girl named Mellisa bullied me. We were best friends, she talked behind my back and other kids said I was stupid cause i couldn't do math and I still can't she thought it would be cool to go along with the group and agree with them, I tried solving problems by telling the teacher but it didn't help cause then they called me tattle tale. Amanda couldn't help me get through it cause she's a grade ahead of me cause of my late birthday so in 4th grade I thought wow a fresh new start it wasn't it just got worst. So I forgave Melissa which was the worst idea because she turned her back on me on this trip our school had taken. but a little before Melissa apologized to me, me and Amanda were Bestfriends as usual but a girl Isis ruined are friendship she spread rumors about Amanda then said it was me she caused all this tension between me and Amanda and so we both started cutting worst thing I could do at least in 4th grade it was. My mom.. she was really mad and my cousin (Andrew) called me Emo for fucks sake and I was super depressed the school thought I was crazy. Amanda and I weren't allowed to talk to each other which was really hard but I managed to make it. Amanda and I couldn't stand it we started talking to each other again and all was well for a little while. So I didn't explain much about the trip but basically here's what happened, We were taking a trip to St. Augustine Florida, I thought Amanda was gonna be in our group but she was with Mellisa in the night group and I was in the daygroup with Mellisa. She said my cousins eye (Madi) Looked kinda creepy (she has lazy eye.) She also said I pushed her in the light house, that we (Madi, her best friend, and I) were bullying her when she was bullying us. She literally wished death on me, started spreading rumors about me it was shit. So in 4th grade me and Mandy decided to get wattpad I already had one but never went on so she made one and we went on together. Well this girl Bella on wattpad I thought I trusted bullied me she called me fake, slut, whore, fake whore, etc. It hurt like fuck. Out of the blue someone I didn't even know said that I was harassing people and said that I was probably fat and ugly in real life when my picture were real. This group of Dance Mom fan girls started bullying me and wouldn't stop until they shut down my account. I kept making new ones but they kept shutting them down. But then I left the Dance Moms fandom for good and the bullying online stopped. (some of the bullying happened in 5th grade.) So now it's 5th grade I'm thinking it would be and awesome year but it wasn't me and Amanda got in fights every day cause of Melissa she kept trying to break are friendship but in my head I was like "Oh hell no." Okay so I had been mad cause Melissa told Amanda that I said something about her so Amanda was ignoring me while they worked together and I decided to write my feelings down I put "FML IHML and IHID" and some really long thing that I can't remember, So I get called to get something in the office for my teacher so I go get that and then come back give it to my teacher but my other teacher called me over when I realized she was holding my note. She started guessing what they said and I nodded yes for what they meant and then she had said "Why'd you write this" So I explained what happened and she sent me to the school counselor (I had to start taking counseling.) I went to the counselor I told her what happened and she asked for my back story of bullying, I told her and then she realized how insecure and shy I was, because you know the back story. She then she called my mom even though I begged her not to. My mom came and picked me up early, I was crying my eyes out and everyone saw which I hate. My mom told me that everyone thought I was going to kill myself by high school and thought I was crazy but she wasn't mad she was worried. She doesn't really know I'm depressed. Sometimes I want to tell her everything that's wrong in my life but I don't, I hated being to shy and insecure to say anything on my mind. By the end of the year people started bullying me again everyone called me marshmallow, chubby bunny, etc. I become anorexic and I still am to this day which is hard to say but it's the truth and I want to be honest with you guys. In 6th grade everything was okay, I fit in until this boy Jose bullied me even though we were dating. I was naive and too afraid to leave him. He eventually left me for another girl that he barely knew the name of. One day while doing a group with the rest of the 6th graders I had to come up with a question and he refused to let me use the question I came up with for the project. He was whispering things to my friends about me while I was sitting right in front of them. He called me stupid and the teacher overheard him say it and made him apologize. I ignored him as he kept saying sorry. I was done with letting people walk all over me. He sat at his desk and started punching himself and stabbing himself with pencils and plastic knifes when he got sent to this office for self harm. His parents had to pick him up early and he transferred weeks later. People in the class starting blaming me for him leaving but once they forgot the bullying was over. No more throwing my bag off my chair and making me pick up my books. All the bullying stopped. I got teased often but I ignored it. I stopped cutting, my friends made me flush my blades. I was happy.
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Im now in 7th grade, I hope I won't have to deal with anymore bullying but I will be in a class with people that used to bully me. Please if you're reading this spread the word, bullying needs to end.
Update
Im going into high school and i decided to check on this account. The bullying never ended. It got worse actually and I plan on writing a part 2. Spread love not hate.
