Choosing Which Side Is Right

Dammit I was caught

Katies pov

I really don't want to be here but I feel like if I turn them down I'll be the laughing stock of ages. At least no one is looking at me anymore maybe it's because Becka is basically getting fucked in the lunchroom. I could see it in her movements and eyes that she doesn't want to do this but she still does. I wonder why?

"Your probably like oh why is Beck such a whore well it's because I tell her to be or I'll tell everyone her little mess up from the little young years" I turn to look at Victoria instanly.

"But that's not fair for her if she has to slave while you just get all the popularity you snob bitch" What the hell was I doing I am dead but who cares maybe my wish could finally be granted.

I get up and walk away from her and walk twords Becka. I pull her off without thinking twice and slap the guy she was kissing.

"Why the hell kiss a guy you don't fucking like for someone who doesn't give two shits about you" I yell

"Shut the fuck up pig" one of the jocks yell at me

"Yo dude chill with that she did nothing to you so just chill." I hear a boy say

I look over to him and look at his appearance he is really really cute and he is looking at me in a way. I don't know what to say to him so I just stare until I feel a slap across my face.

"What the fuck bro!"

"Just shut up Josh do you even know this slut"

"No but I'm sure I want to get to know her" the boy named Josh says inaudible but only I could hear the words he said.

I just walk away actually I run so fast and so hard that I almost trip on Victoria again. Oh how wonderful that would have been wouldn't it. I run until my legs burn as if I was walking on fire and I stop right at my locker. I hit the floor trying to catch my breath. The feeling in my chest unbearable.

I can't believe that just happened. After two years of keeping to myself I managed to fuck up and now the whole school is going to know my name by the end of the day. I'm so fucked up.

Crying I go into my locker and pull out my pouch. I go to the bathroom and look into the mirror....

"Stupid me stupid me stupid me STUPID MEEEEE!!!" I scream banging the mirror in the school restroom. I can't believe I'm having a meltdown at school.

I start to feel light headed and my arms are tingling. I feel like they are calling for me to do what I always do.

(TRIGGER WARNING! I'll have a sign when it's done)

I go into my bag and feel around till I feel the cool metal on my fingers. It feels good. I take out the blade and look at it first like I always do twisting it around my fingers. My mind is blank it's empty I can feel absolutely nothing in my heart of my body. I put tell blade to my wrist making sure to move the bracelets out of my ways as I do.

I press softly on my skin at first going harder the farther I go it hurts at first then goes away. I'm used to this feeling the feeling of numbness. I can see the blood going down my arm down my body I can only feel that. I only want that.
(It's over! Also cutting is a serious issue I do not want anyone to think that it is acceptable to personally hurt your body to make you feel better or look better you are all beautiful. .... private message me if you ever feel the need to do anything I'm always here)
"Katie what are you doing! Stop right now"

"Is she alright I'm coming in"

I panic and all I could do is stare.

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