Selfish
The word I never allowed myself to be
Selfish
The action that I would never let happen
Holding myself back from possibilities
The moments that I wanted, now stopped
And for what?
Putting someone else's feelings before my own
Making them feel good
Getting what they wanted
Seeing them happy
That was what I lived for
Locking myself in that bubble
A friend's loyal servant
Following orders on command
"No Lindsay, don't be selfish
Don't be that girl
The girl only who thinks about herself
Who shows no care for others feelings" says my conscience
But I did it
I let my heart run wild
I let myself be selfish
I had no regard for no one's feelings but my own
But at what cost?
To see someone's world crumple at their feet?
To see someone's life be a lie?
I traded in knowing right from wrong to just saying "Fuck it"
I wanted to break away from who I was
I wanted no part of her
A servant, catering to others feelings
I wanted to be free
I wanted to be selfish
I don't want that anymore
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Untold
PoetryJust a small collection of my poems, they aren't great but hey why not