Untold

Selfish

Selfish

The word I never allowed myself to be

Selfish

The action that I would never let happen

Holding myself back from possibilities

The moments that I wanted, now stopped

And for what?

Putting someone else's feelings before my own

Making them feel good

Getting what they wanted

Seeing them happy

That was what I lived for

Locking myself in that bubble

A friend's loyal servant

Following orders on command

"No Lindsay, don't be selfish

Don't be that girl

The girl only who thinks about herself

Who shows no care for others feelings" says my conscience

But I did it

I let my heart run wild

I let myself be selfish

I had no regard for no one's feelings but my own

But at what cost?

To see someone's world crumple at their feet?

To see someone's life be a lie?

I traded in knowing right from wrong to just saying "Fuck it"

I wanted to break away from who I was

I wanted no part of her

A servant, catering to others feelings

I wanted to be free

I wanted to be selfish

I don't want that anymore