Every happy moment I had, had you at its prime,
Éclairs we shared in the dark, to times we'd vine,
Nubile, so full of life, you lit me up with every turn,
Numb you made me feel, always lessened the pain,
Never felt a moment when you did not stun,
Naysayers we malevolently kicked into the urn,
Adept we were at dealing with nights of insomnia,
Averting our gazes, now we can't tango or habanera,
You turned away, ripped me to have your way,
Yet here I still am, that soft spot here to stay,
Right through squabbles and every moment of war,
Rafted myself to quietness and loss, let you emerge victor,
A happy you is all that mattered, only cared for that "Ha-ha",
A goodbye you'd never hear from me, you I'll never "Ta-ta",
Mornings I wake up wishing it was all a dream,
Make me wonder if you feel the same, and a sigh exclaim,
I know you don't want to see me walk by, not even ski,
Indifferent, you make me want to take an afterlife safari,
At times I want to reach out to you, not once, a plethora,
Afraid you'd shun me again though, I'd rather slip into a coma,
My being's not the same and chances with you look slim,
Maple autumn leaves, all I have to remind me of you in a sum,
Sorry I couldn't be what you hoped for, sorry for the sores,
Solely, I've holes in my soul, contrite for my consistent falls,
Over with thinking I shouldn't have held back like so,
Objectionable you thought I was, acts not spared too,
Red envelope on my table, where I kept your last letter,
Read it daily like a fable, every day my heart breaks further,
Roving with anger and hurt, I have no quell, no anchor,
Ripe is the dread that you'll forget me, us, every jiffy together,
Yes it kills me, but heals you, brightens you, but gets me teary,
You to keep that angelic smile for forever and a day, is all that I pray.
