tumakbo na ako ng CR, bahala na ano marinig nya pero fuck. i don't know why, bakit sa lahat ng taong malilib*gan ako, sa kapatid ko pa?!
is it because i just sex with her last night?
damn that woman, she's the reason why i my c*ck is hardly releasing a c*m right now.
tch, i'm not a man.
after i release myself on the bowl, pumunta na ako sa Kusina nandun sya kumakain na.
i can't even understand her.
"Yantian, umuwi kana." hindi sa pinagtatabuyan ko sya pero ano nalang iisipin ng iba kapag nakita kaming magkasama?
oo, ampon nga sya pero- damn it.
everyone thinks that we are siblings thought that wasn't true.
"I don't want to, i want to stay here with you." hindi ko na talaga alam ang sasabihin ko da babaeng to.
alam nyang bakla ako, but she was forcing himself to me.
si Cade? ano, papaasahin nya nalang?
sana alam nya ginagawa nya, wag nya naman paasahin si Cade.
naging lalake para sknya, dahil sknya. tapos ganun lang? mag ngyari lang saamin, ano? iiwan nya na sa ere yang bestfriend nyang umaasa sknya?
such a bad girl.
"wag mong paasahin si Cade, maawa ka sa tao." i heard her laugh, lumapit sya saakin at naramdaman ko ang kamay nya sa loob ng Tshirt ko.
fuck, no way.
"ano ba yantian?! can you stop?!"
yes, i just shout because of her.
i hate it, bakla ako mas babae pa nga ako sknya. bakit ba saakin pa eh, leche naman.
"Tch, ang sungit." sabay irap nya saakin, inirapan ko nga sya pabalik.
akala nya ba, naging lalake na agad ako?
hindi, hindi basta-basta ang gusto nya.
"wag kana umasang babalikan ka ni Seth, dahil wala ka ng pagasa. di kana mahal non, at ako nalang yung kaya magmahal sayo kahit ganyan ka. Luhan, you just fuck me, you want and like what we did. why are you keep on rejecting me?!"
i can see a tears falling from her eyes.
i cupped his face and wipe those tears on her eyes. "i'm so sorry.."
i don't know what should i say with her.
i feel guilty same way i'm being man.
kelan ko pa naging weakness, ang isang iyak ng babae?
"stop, crying." i told her and wipe those tears.
i'm crazy, she's so beautiful.. really.
why i'm acting like a real man?
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Yantian
i'm with Cade right now, ayoko rin naman saktan ang bestfriend ko. pero kase talagang di ko sya kayang mahalin.
ayokong mas masaktan sya, kaya dapat nyang malaman to. mas masasaktan sya kung aasa sya saakin.
aasa sya sa bagay na sobrang malabo ng mangyari.
"Cade." tumingin lang sya saakin, i'm on being serious mode.
Cade should stop loving and courting me.
i can't give him a chance that he wants.
"i'm sorry.."
tumingin sya saakin at hinawakan ang kamay ko, nakita ko sa mga mata nyang parang naintidihan nya ako?
"I know, i saw you last night with Luhan. you take care of him. i'm really lose, you love him so much and i can't never stop you. he is your happiness, i know you meet me because you want me to stop on courting you. i understand, Yan."
"i'm really, sorry.."
hinawakan nya ang kamay ko at ngumiti saakin. "no need to say sorry." he kissed me on forehead before leaving me inside the coffee shop.
i'm not the one for you, Cade.
there is someone else for you,
but it wasn't me.
nsglakad-lakad nalang sa Mall, then i saw a familiar faces of Seth and Steff.
they are cute, they are dating.
"Jiějiě!" it's seth, he saw me.
lumapit sila saakin, ang cute nilang tignan.
naiingit ako, tangina?
"wala kang kasama, JieJie?" Seth ask me, i shook my head.
ni ex mo nga ayaw ako makita.
"san ka pala natulog kagabi, Jie?" Steff asked me.
oh, how to answer this question?
"she sleep with me." biglang sagot ng isang boses na nggaling mula sa likuran ko, inakbayan nya pa ako at nagwink pa saakin.
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i need some air, i feel like i'm in heaven right now.
"really?" curiously Seth asked, he is curious na maging lalake uli tong ex nya.
he told me everything, why he broke up with Luhan.
and he wants now to see his EX to be a real men.
"lalake kana, Gege." Luhan's Face, para syang dismayang tinawag syang GEGE ng EX nya? well, so awkward.
