Break (Quintis)

Break

Happy's POV:

"I've loved you since I can't remember when, and I'm gonna love you until I can't forget how. Will you please marry me?" Toby said.

Knowing the answer I have to say, tears start forming in my eyes, along with the ones that are already there owing to his adorable song.

"No," I finally say, even though I want to marry this man so badly.

The confetti blasts as if I were to say yes.

"Why not?" He replied, looking as hurt as I was inside.

"I can't. I'm married to someone else. I'm sorry."

The words coming out of my mouth hurt more than in my head. I try to flee the headquarters as fast as I can, but Toby says something.

"Happy, wh-?"

"Please, don't follow me," I reply back almost automatically.

As soon as I got out of the garage, I got in my truck. I put the keys in, and started the engine. I exhaled, as if I could let go of what just happened, but it didn't work. I drive away from the garage and head toward my apartment.

Too bad I live 30 minutes away. Great. Now I have time to doubt my life decisions. Maybe if I turn on the radio it'll get my mind off things.

So I turn in the radio, and the first song that comes on is Break, by Katharine McPhee. Huh. I've never heard of her. Hopefully this will be a good song.

The lyrics start, and this is the exact song I wasn't looking for. Oh well.

Long night, headed home,
First night on my own.
I can't move, without you,
but where did you go?

The heart fills with
the things it loves,
and my heart is
filled with us, oh,
I can't move,
without you,
but where do we go?

Do I just hold you
in the back of my mind?
Do you think about me too?
I'd lose myself to have you.
I wanna feel how it felt
when we fell in love.

Man, I thought. I can really relate to these lyrics.

I'm about to break,
I'm about, I'm about
to break down.
I don't want to say,
don't want to say
it's over now.

I'm about to break,
I'm about, I'm about
to break down,
'cause I have to say,
I have to say it's over now.

Break down,
I'm on my way down,
don't want to say
it's over now.

Break down,
I'm on my way down,
I have to say
it's over now.

Tears started to well up in my eyes when I realized how true these lyrics were.

Your eyes,
fixed on me,
I'll never ever
be that seen.
No oh,
Pass you on the street,
No one will know
that I still hold you,
in the back of my mind.

Do, and do you think
about me too?
I'd lose myself to have you.
I wanna feel how it felt
when we fell in love.

I'm about to break,
I'm about, I'm about
to break down.
I don't want to say,
I don't want to say
it's over now.

I'm about to break,
I'm about, I'm about
to break down,
'cause I have to say,
'cause I have to say
it's over now.

Break down,
I'm on my way down,
don't want to say
it's over now.

Break down,
I'm on my way down,
I have to say
it's over now.

I almost had to pull over because there were so many tears in my eyes that they were blocking my vision. So I pulled over and let them go. I started to cry, and with it came snot.

Great. Just fantastic. I reached over to my glove compartment to get some tissues. I pulled over to wipe my nose and get my act together.

I wiped my eyes one more time before I got back on the road.

</15 minutes later>

I reached my apartment complex, and walked up two flights of stairs before I reached my apartment. I pulled out my key ring and the one I had in my hands, just by muscle memory, was Toby's spare key. I looked down at it, and cursed myself. I got the key for my apartment and unlocked the door. After I closed it, I stood there for a while, just taking in everything that happened today.

I slid my back down the door and told myself,

"Happy Quinn, you will never do that again."

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