You were never the popular one. You never got invited to parties. You never got asked to sit at the cool kid table at lunch. You were the one the other kids picked on. Why me? You ask yourself every night in bed. What did I do to deserve this?
I woke up for school at 6:00 am. Got out of bed and got dressed in ripped jeans and a flannel. I went to the bathroom brushed my hair and pulled it back into a side braid. Put on just a little bit of face makeup to cover up my ugly skin so no one would see. I ate my breakfast, brushed my teeth, and headed out to the bus. No one ever wanted me to sit with them. So I always found an empty seat and sat there. But today, something weird happened. This kid I've had a crush on for years, Hunter, sat down with me. I looked at him for a second and he just smiled at me. I turned and looked out the window trying to comprehend what had just happened.
When we got to school, everything was normal, kids threw things at me in the hallway or tripped me or stuck notes to my locker saying stuff like "your ugly" "go die already" or "no one likes you, bitch."
As of today, there were lots of notes on my locker. When I was pulling them down, I turned and caught Hunter starring at me smiling. Okay on the bus is one thing but now at school too? He's like the most popular guy ever! When he saw that I noticed he looked away and walked to his locker.
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The bell for 1st period rang which means I have math. As I was getting my stuff out of my locker, this popular girl Tiffany, walks up to me with her group and slaps me then pushes me down. "Hey bitch, just wondering why your still here. Uhh didn't you see the notes we left for you? Just go!! No one fucking likes you!" she said. Her friends laughed. They then walked away and got to their classes. I was picking up my things when a voice interrupted me.
"Hey are you okay?" I turned around and it was Hunter.
"Oh me? Yeah I-I'm fine" I said.
"Are you sure? She pushed you bad" he said.
"Yeah I'm good" I got my stuff and ran to the bathroom. "I got to go"
When I got to the bathroom, I ran into the last stall, and cried. I don't know what I did to deserve this. This morning I had put a blade in my backpack. I had never self harmed before but I always kept it with me. I pulled it out, rolled up my sleeve and cut..1..2..3. It hurt at first but then I just kinda kept going and didn't mind it.
I stayed in there until I heard the second period bell, which for me is science. Hunters in this class, and he sits right behind me. When I got to class I sat down in my seat like nothing had happened.
"Hey are you sure your okay?" Hunter asked me.
"Yes I'm fine, and why do you care?" I asked him.
"You just seemed upset and I wanted to make sure everything's alright" he said.
Then the teacher came in and said "Okay class, today we are going to start a new experiment and you will be getting new lab partners. And yes you can pick."
"Hey (y/n) do you wanna be my partner?" Hunter asked me. I looked around, it's not like anyone else is dying to be with me and hunters my crush so I said yes.
"So it looks like we have to do some researching for this too so do you wanna maybe come over after school?" Hunter asked me.
"Uhh sure what time?" I asked him.
"Is 4 okay?" He said.
"Yes it is!" I said.
The rest of the day flew by, yeah people pushed and shoved me but the only thing I was worried about right now was Hunters house.
skip to after school***
I walked to Hunters since he doesn't live that far from me. When I got up to his house I knocked on the door and his mom answered.
"Hi! You must be (y/n). Hunters been telling me all about you. Come on in!"
"Hi Mrs. Rowland" i said.
"Please, call me Christine, honey" she said. "And uh hunters right upstairs in his room."
"Okay thank you!" I said.
As I was walking upstairs, I heard Hunter and his brother arguing in his room. I was about to knock on the door, when Brandon comes storming out looking mad. I wonder what they're fighting about now.
"Hey Hunter" I said going into his room.
"Oh hey (y/n)!" He said to me. " uhh, listen, before we get started on the research, I just wanna clear the air and say that I think your really gorgeous and seeing you getting hurt at school makes me feel bad."
I didn't know what to say.
"Oh wow, Hunter, thanks, and I like you."
"Really? That's so good to hear because I really like you too"
"How do you like me? The girl who everyone hates, the ugly bitch that's always getting beat up"
"I don't see you as an ugly bitch, I think you're really beautiful and those people bullying you are just jealous of how great you are. I love everything about you!" He grabbed my wrist and kissed me.
But when we grabbed my wrist, my sleeve went up showing my cuts.
"Oh no, please don't tell me you did this" he said.
I looked down, and a tear fell from my eye.
"(y/n) you're too beautiful to be doing this to yourself. I know things are hard for you right now, but I promise, they are going to get better. And this is not the answer to it. This is only going to make things worse. Please please pleaseeee just promise me you won't cut ever again."
"I promise" I said to him. At this point, I was balling my eyes out, but I was in his arms. He made me feel protected and like no one could ever hurt me again.
