desk notes

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[full chap]

over these past few days, she had been receiving these types of desk notes, if you would call them.

these notes are sent by someone that calls themselves 'p.j'. she often wonders why would someone this sweet would write you encouraging words in the middle of the day.

and it's not as easy as you think it would be, finding someone with initials p.j. the thing is, there are over hundreds or even thousands of people having the same initials in korea.

every day she would receive a note from that someone. he/she would put it during lunch period. where everyone was out in about. yet, nobody saw who put the note there.

she has eight best friends. but she wasn't the one who was never the center of attention in the group. she was still obnoxious and loud, yet these eight girls stood by her. they weren't the kingka's of the school, they are a group of girls with different colors yet closer than other groups of girls you could find within the school. she had her grades up, and one of the highest ranking in her grade. but, nobody saw through her.

she may have obnoxious, loud and cheerful exterior. but no one really cares about her interior. having both parents with a generation difference between her age, with a sickness that was hard to cure. yet again, she was insecure.

with korean beauty standards raising higher and higher, she had a hard time finding herself in the group. with constant worries of am i pretty enough? maybe it likes that one in the movie duff? am i enough? am i skinny enough? yet many more questions fill her head of hers. but where is there to show if no one's listening?

even with the constant stress, she kept her head high for the better. she wanted to soar the sky with her head up high. without anyone stopping her.

yet, she felt alone.

she felt as if she was the only one there.

she felt nobody would care.

the cause of that she would often ask herself whether the person put the notes on a wrong table. especially he or she never really wrote who the notes are for.

but either way, she was grateful for these short sentences. those few words have made her life a tad happier since the weight on your shoulders have multiplied since you walked in high school. because of she, would love to show her gratitude to this person.

she ended up waiting in class. so she waited.

and waited..

and waited.

yet no one came. finally giving up, she went out of the classroom just right before the bell rang to go grab new books for the next class as also something to snack on while walking back to your class.

as she was about to sit down on her seat. she noticed a pastel blue post it once again.