I sit on my bed staring at my computer in shock and false hope.
Signs of abuse
My compute read.
#1: flinches away from human contact.
#2: very reserved.
#3: usually very shy.
#4: worries about keeping people happy.
#5: usually stutters around new people and or abuser.
I curse quietly considering it's like 1 am.
I shuffle towards my bed side table.
I grab my cigarette pack. "I know I told mom I'd quiet but I just, I can't" I mumble.
I open the door to my balcony area.
I light my cig an take a deep inhale.
I puff it out. It's been two weeks since that little scene on the first day.
The next day I had come to school and acted like it never happened.
Since then I had gotten to know Naomi and Alex.
Naomi still stutters slightly but it's got better.
I just feel she's hiding something. I have never actually been that close to her.
There was always at least a ten foot distant between us.
After looking at the info on my computer I think I know why.
"Are you ok miss" a voice yells.
I look down to see Alex holding Naomi's hand.
I look down glaring.
I grab the railing and jump down. Two stories.
"Woah chick your crazy" Alex yells.
"Yes I know" I reply.
"Wait Clyde" he asks.
"Wht is it weird for a girl to be on her balcony smoking at one am" I snap.
He flinches back taken aback. "N-no sorry for asking" he says.
"Babe what are you doing down there" a voice asks.
I look up to see a shirtless Trevor.
I hear Naomi let out a gasp.
I hide my cig begin my back.
"I'm talking duh" I say then inwardly scold myself.
"What" he yells then jumps down.
I see Naomi shrink down slightly.
"I-I can explain" I stutter out.
"No" he barks he grabs my hand and takes the cigarette. "You ppromised" he yells.
"I know but" he cuts me off.
"No you promised mom you promised her" he says brokenly.
"I just can't do it anymore Trevor there getting to me again. There winning. I'm all out of fight" I crack.
He pulls me to him then I start to sob lightly.
"Baby doll I didn't mean to yell" he says.
"No I understand I was in the wrong" I whisper.
"Look let go to bed" Trevor says.
"No I can't sleep. Ill just have the nightmare again" I say.
