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this chapter, before i touched it, was called 'untitled 10'.
this book has like, 4 poems published. that means that 5 are still unfinished but being worked on, meaning i'm not done. i am nowhere close to finished. i haven't forgotten about this book nor have i forgotten y'all.
this chapter isn't entirely pointless and filled with half-empty promises i'll take a year and some change to make good on. i'm giving y'all an abstract concept for the moment, something i've become a specialist in lately. my long hiatus has been a long time of feeling and thinking.
i'm young. 16, to be exact. i come from a strict upbringing, but i know it's because my parents just want the best for me. that's why i'm hoping they'll understand me when i go against them a tad.
if you read any of my last 'rants', you'll see that i said i'm tired. the things going on against black people, women and queer people have exhausted me. my energy is damn near gone. still, someone in the comments told me that resting was fun, but i can't go back to sleep.
i won't. i made a silent promise to all my persecuted people that i would try and use my little voice, what little platform i have, to speak for them. i'd like to think i made good on that... but i haven't done as much justice as i could've.
so i'm thinking.
i don't think i could do any poetry slams. the things i could talk about are considered too grown because they deal with real shit like misogyny, sex, etc. and how it all ties into each other. that and there's the whole thing about my parents, who i don't really want seeing my shit so that they can tell me to water my words down. fuck that. i'm thinking that maybe i could perform my poems on video and later make songs out of them once i get enough cashflow for studio time. post them on my tumblr so that they can get some type of notoriety.
i dunno though // it seems like a good idea.
what do you all think? if i uploaded my poems as spoken word onto tumblr, would y'all watch and share? these are real questions that need real answers, i need to know before i make any sudden moves.
