Virgin

12. Dead Arm

I decided to face her now. I knock on the door and she mumbles something out sounding like "Yeah?" so I slowly slide inside our bedroom.

"Can we talk?" I ask.

"About?" She questions as she makes the bed and folds some of her clothes on top.

"About how you feel" I say, a little hesitant as to if that was really what I wanted to talk about and if I actually wanted to know that answer.

"How I feel about what?"

"About everything. About.....me?" I ask, still fearful of her answer.

"Well I have no idea. I don't know how I feel about what's going on and what I want to do. I don't know if this will work or if we are finished. What I do know is I love you. I'm in love with you, James and I'm willing to fight for you. I'm willing to work this out but for what? If you don't love me like I love you then what's the point of fighting?"

"God I do love you. I've never loved someone like I love you. I fucked up. I did drugs, drank and did something I wouldn't do and I learned my lesson. I wouldn't ever do anything like that again because I don't want to lose you. I don't know how to explain how I feel about you and this but what I can say is I'd give up everything I have, everything, for another chance. A chance to prove what I did was a mistake. That I can be who you need, I can be your king"

"My king?"

"Yes, because your my Queen and you rule my entire world" I say, breathing really hard, feeling relieved I got everything out.

She smiles at me a little, surprised at all of what I just said and begins to whip her eyes. She collapses on the bed and runs her fingers through a few small strains surrounding her face.

"You love me?" She says.

"So much it scares me because I've never felt this way before" I say back.

"I love you" She says, looking at me.

"I love you" I say and reach over to hold her hand. She moves closer to me and I hug her close, sitting on the edge of the bed, our hands still locked together.

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I woke that morning, her head resting on my chest and my arm holding her close to me. For awhile, I just smiled at her peaceful being, sleeping with no worries, just messy hair and cheeks swished together. So beautiful. She yawns and opens her eyes.

"Good morning baby" I say.

"Good morning ugly" She laughs and pulls me in for a kiss.

"Let's do something today?" She says with excitement in her voice.

"What about work?" I ask.

"Schedules are changing because of the remodel so I guess I'm out of a job until there are finished remodeling....I forgot to tell you, I'm sorry"

"Why are you apologizing? Now we will have more time together and I can see your beautiful smile all day, except for when your like, in the bathroom and stuff" I say.

"Your an idiot" she giggles and pulls herself out of bed.

"Let's go see your sister? Maybe go bowling or something"

I fucked the girl at the bowling alley so bowling was a bad idea.

"Ah Adian hates bowling" I say.

"Oh okay, well we should see them?" She smiles.

I nod to please her but confused on why she was so eager to see my little family. Plus we just had them here for dinner and things were a little awkward.

"I'll call your sister and let her know" Kristie smiles and leaves the room while putting her phone up to her ear.

I head over to the closet to pull out a shirt and some shorts. I close the door and do my best to listen in on what Kristie and my sister were discussing.

"Devin?" Kristie questions.

"Hey so I have the week off and we were wondering what you guys are up to today?"

She pauses and listens for an answer.

"Oh okay, so what would they like to do today?
You have a new dog? Well if they want to go to the park for ice cream and some time to run around with the dog we could do that?"

*pause*

"That's right, Aidan might not be a big fan of that, rollerskating might be fun?
Lia likes that idea?"

*pause*

"Oh okay great rollerskating then! We will most likely be over at the house in twenty ish minutes"

*pause*

"Great see you then, bye!"

I hear her click the end button and her feet walk towards the room so I jump back up towards the closet and pretend like I'm still getting dressed.

"So we are going rollerskating with the kids. We will be heading over Devin's for lunch before" She says and I smile which assures her everything she said is fine with me.

She grabs some clothes from her side and walks into the bathroom to "freshin up" as she calls it even though that never involves a shower. I hurry out to the kitchen for some food and the minute I take one bite out of a piece of cheese, Kristie slaps it out my hand and giggles.

"Not in my house!" She says and closes the fridge.

"What was that for?" I ask.

"We are having lunch with your sister, don't be an ass and eat a bunch of crap here"

"A piece of cheese honey, it was CHEESE" I say and pick her up. I throw her over my shoulder, grab my keys her phone and head out to the car. She's just hanging there, laughing and calling me an asshole.

I set her down in the front and buckle her seatbelt. She frowns at me and I squeeze her cheeks.

"Awe is someone angry? Cool" I say and shut the door. She sees me laughing all the way to my side so she reaches over and locks my door. I go to pull it open and I look like an idiot, once again. I'm use to my idiocy now.

I knock on the window and she pretends she doesn't hear me so I smile, show her I have the keys and open my door. She frowns again.

"Ass -" She begins and then pauses.

"Ass face" She continues.

"Good one babe" I smile and we head down to Devin's house. By the time I get there I have a dead arm, from my girlfriend punching me. All. The. Way. There.