My Almost Love Story

From the start

I knew that i loved him from the start. My name is D'Auja and I'm in 4th grade and there is this boy that I think is cute, I think to my slef what am I going to do about this I just met him. This boy is about 5,4 ,and has brown eyes that sparkle in any lighting. So I went over to my friend Trinity and told her I thought he was cute and said I know he is, so Trinity want over and talk to him. When she came back she told me she had a new boyfriend and I started crying I knew that she had stolen the man I loved and they say you can't love a guy the first time u see him I guess you can. When I got home from school I ran up to my room and cried myslef to sleep. I went to school the next day and had to see my "Best Friend " with my crush how could I live with that. Now I have to see my "bestfriend" and Idirs for the rest of the year.

Now I'm in 5th grade and Idirs still looks so cute still has those sparkling brown eyes and this year maybe 5,6 but this year I didn't feel the same way as I did last year. Was it because I knew I was not going to be able to ever get him. But as I went on with the year I found out Trinity and Idirs head broken up. Soon after I found that out I started developing the same felling as i had for him last year but stronger and I still don't know what I can't let go about this guy.
I think to myself why do I even like him I'm not going to get him and I never will. So once again I'm stuck in the same situation as last year. Now it the end of the school year and almost all of Ms,Groves class was crying. Idirs walked in (with that same smile he always cracks to make everyone fall so heard) and see everyone crying and walks over to me and asked me if I was ok and I told him everything was ok but my friend Makenna is moving away. So Idirs gives me a hug and I feel great. It's the end of the day 6/4/2012 and we all get in a group hug and say our goodbyes .

Now I'm in 6th grade and I don't see Idirs at all so I think the im good for the year I'm doing good not thinking about him too much but he is still on my mind. So not much to say about this year just a normal 6th grade year.

On no now I'm in middle school so scared because there is a lot of people and I don't know a lot if them. So I think I'm good this year. I'm going on as a normal 7th grade year should go. Now it's the middle of the year and I go to gym and it's the day to play Skittle ball with the boys and Idirs walks in just when I thought I finally ran away from him but I guess I spoke to soon. So he comes up to me and I asked how his 6th grade year was and ask the same question. So we went on talking and got on to 7th grade and it was just like 6th grade but what he doesn't know is my year just got alot better now that he is here. And I'm doing good talking to him and now I'm starting to get the same feelings and now I'm in middle school so that means people are smarter and things are going to be more obvious so I'm so scared someone will find out I like Idirs what am I going to do. Well as we finish the year with him once again.

Now in 8th grade and i think Idirs already knows i like him and he is there from the start. Well me and Idirs are like best friends and I help him with all his girlfriend problems and give him advice like a best friend should. Now it's the middle of the year and I'm moving. Well I get off the bus after school and someone asked me if I would walk to the Sugar Shack with them, and I see Idirs sitting at the table passing out candy. And he is still super cute of course, so Idirs asked me to come back after I go home to drop off my candy and backpack so when i come back Idirs is sitting there waiting for me and I go over to him and we sit together, as I'm sitting here I get thirsty so I asked if he could get me a drink and he gives me his drink and he says "do you know what this means it means we just kissed" after that he said " not like I'm complaining," now it's time for the Sugar Shack to close down, so I sit there waiting for him to finished picking up all the tables and stuff. And he hands me a Starbucks vanilla mocha coffee and then we started walking. Then I just ended up walking him home so I go in his house and meet his mom and me and Idirs sit and talk for a while till he has to go get ready for a baseball game so I leave. And the rest of the year is pretty much the same as that wonderful day was.

Now it's the summer of 2016 and I have not talked to Idirs. Now a fue days latter I here from him and it is so good to here is voice again. Now im sitting here and I just realized that I have never told him how I felt. So I texted him a long paragraph and I told him I can't hold back any more so I told him how I felt all of those 5-6 years. And he told me "I like someone else" I was so heart broken so I sit here to night and I wrote this terrible love story to you.