I'm not what you think

Dedication to sammy

After what I saw Matthew had put up on Facebook an idea popped into my head. My mum can sing, and Sammys favourite band was The 1975. What if I asked my mum to sing one of there songs.
I went down stairs and asked mum. "Mum I know you haven't uploaded a video in ages but I was wondering, could you sing a song dedicated to Sammy. Preferably one by The 1975?"
"Well I will see what I can do. Have you got any specific song?" Mum asked.
"Well I've listened to most of there stuff. And I really like Antichrist."I said.
"Ok I'll have a listen and look at the lyrics and see what I can do for you."
"Thanks mum." I said giving her a hug.
After about an hour of trying to work something out and learning the lyrics mum managed to get something together.
She got dads camera out and I sat on the opposite side to mum. She told me to press record.
"Wow this feels weird. Anyway, hi guys I know it's been a few years since I have uploaded a video. But today I am making a video for someone special who has passed away. Now most of you are either friends with my son or know him because you watch Marcus. Today's video is another cover video, and the song I'm going to sing is antichrist by the 1975. Now not many of you will know who this is but I like the song and I think it fits well with the situation." Mum grabbed her guitar and I pressed record again.
'And I swear there's a ghost on this island, and his hands all covered in blood. And my wife enquirer of understanding, but of course my dear you can't. She said how can I relate to somebody who doesn't speak. I feel  like I'm just treading water, is it the same for you.'

Mums voice is amazing, as she was singing I felt a tear fall down my cheek. Mum stopped playing the guitar and stopped singing, she looked at me.
"Oh come here." She got up and gave me a hug.
"Are you ok?"she asked softly.
"Yeah I will be. Sorry I look like an idiot."
"Hey. Your not stupid your brave."
I looked up at my mum and realised how supportive mum dad and Sydney have all been. Sydney has been giving me some space, dad has made sure that Charlie gets what he deserves and mum well she's just being there for me, making sure that I'm coping well.
I mean I am doing better but like my mum said "you will never get over loosing a loved one." And I suppose it's true because I know I will get into another relationship, but not now.