Voices in my Heart

Voice 1: Tauriel

     "I'm always here why am I always here?" I think wishing I could get out of here.

     "Tauri..."

     "Don't touch me! I wanna play the piano."

     "OK, Darling but your parents are here to see you." Nurse Aline says.

     "They're really here? Can I see them?"

     I then jolt out of a dream and see Alan shaking me.

     "Tauri, Tauriel! Wake up."

     "Alan? Why are you shaking me?" Alan was my best friend since I was little. He was tall and thin with dark blonde hair and bright blue eyes, hidden behind thick black glasses

     "You passed out, again."

     "Again? Ugghhh! I hate it here." I was "home" again. That's what I call the hospital now. I'm in the same room every time, room 226, or as the nurses call it "The Tauriel Room". It is bright yellow, which is my least favorite color. The drab grey blankets barely give me any warmth, because the big bay window leaks the air in.

     I've been coming here ever since I was three. I'm twenty-six now and I'm still not doing very well. I was first admitted with leukemia and then I was in remission from the age of six to nine. It came back at age ten and lasted until I was sixteen. I've been in remission for ten years now....

     "Have they said what's wrong yet?"

     "Have you been taking your diabetes medicine?" Alan asks scolding me.

     "I was on vacation with my brother last week and I forgot to bring it. Other than that yes."

     "It was just your diabetes. You were very lucky this time." Doctor Alvarez comes in. "Tauriel, I have something to tell you."

     "Okay, it can't be too bad. I'm up for the challenge. Alan is here for me too."

     "That's what I came to talk to you about. Tauriel we're going to send you to a mental institute because..."

     "Why? There's nothing wrong with me. It was just my diabetes." I start to panick and my heart starts pounding giving me a massive headache.

     "There is something wrong, Tauriel. You've had Schizophrenia since you were sixteen. Alan isn't really here. He died in a car crash five years ago, on his twenty-first birthday."

     "No! No! Alan is here he's holding my hand! If he was dead I would have remembered."

     "No, you wouldn't have. Your brain blocked it out. You blocked it Tauriel, because you don't want to remember it...."

     I wake up dazed and confused. I am definitely in the hospital. I'm definitely in "my room", but I'm not sure if the conversation I just had was real.
     The lights are still insanely bright and annoying. The T.V is still too soft. I'm so tired of this place. Some days I wish I was gone. I press the button to call the nurse. She runs in right away to make sure I'm fine.
     "How can I help you? Are you okay?" She's short and thin with straight brown hair.
     "Has the doctor been in here recently?"
     "No. We were waiting until you woke up." They usually don't wait that means no one is here to see me. Alan wasn't here like I thought. This is so strange. Alan is always here when I wake up.

The doctor comes in about an hour later. I had just been sitting and watching Maury. It's about 3 now.
     "Hello, Tauriel. It is nice to see you again. I just wish it didn't have to be under these circumstances." Doctor Alvarez was a newer doctor. The doctor who had been taking care of me since I was little, Dr. Hall, had retired. I missed him, but Dr. Alvarez is cool.
     "It's nice to see you too. Do we know why I'm here yet?" It takes a few seconds for her to respond so I really know something is wrong.
     "Do you remember what you did yesterday?" I am very confused, because I obviously remember what I did.
     "I got home from a trip to Hawaii with my brother-"
     "No, you didn't. Tauriel, you had a heat stroke several days ago. Your neighbor Tom realized you weren't home and went to look for you. He knew you wouldn't leave without telling them. He found you on the side of the road about 15 miles from your house. You had a broken beer bottle in your hand and you were talking to a stray cat. I'm sorry Tauriel, but we are going to have to run some tests on you to make sure there is no permanent damage. I know this is a lot to take in. I'll leave you alone so you can process everything." She was just about to leave the room when I called after her.
     "Dr. Alvarez! Did Alan come to visit me?" She turn around slowly with a look like she wasn't quite sure what to say.
     "No, he hasn't come yet." She walks out of the room as I try to take everything in. How did I not know something was going wrong? Is there something wrong with me? Am I going crazy? I just don't know anything anymore. I pray Alan comes soon.

Hey, guys. I am revamping this story. I realized after I was done with it that it really wasn't long and the chapters were more like one paragraph. So here is the update. I hope you all like the story as much as I do.
<3 Sarah