Chapter 1:
Do You Love Me?
We were laying there half asleep and and daydreaming about all the fun times we used to have together... I always thought that I would never end up with someone like him... He was and amazing best friend and I didn't want to lose him... But I was moving and I'm trying to get him to move with me... But he insists that I move in with him and my mum already said that it was ok but I don't want to because I really truly and honestly don't know how to live alone with a boy... I don't care if he is my best friend, he could still hurt me... Or worse.... Get mad at me and never want to see me again.
Yeah we do fight a lot, but we can't even stay mad at each other for more than 5 minutes because he's always crawling back to me crying and begging for his forgiveness and I always accept. I just don't want to take the chance you know?
" Cynthia please move in with me," Zayn's voice broke through my thoughts and brought me back to the real world.
I turned over and looked at him and said.
" I would love that and you know I would, but I'm too afraid of getting hurt and you already know that."
" I promised so many times that I wouldn't hurt you... just please... and plus your mum said you could and if I did hurt you she would come and get you... She would take you away from me," Zayn said making me remember what all she said.
" Fine, but I promise you that if you do hurt me then ill never come and see you anymore I will never want to see your cute little face anymore... Just please don't do anything to hurt me," I said leaning up and hugging him because he was already sitting up in the bed.
And no we didn't do anything!!! We are just friends and that's all!!!'
He turned around a little and hugged me properly and said:
" I promise I won't hurt you... I'm happy that your moving in with me now!!!!"
We were merely 17 and we are already living with each other. WOW!!!
I was so happy do this... I need to tell my boyfriend that I'm not leaving at all and that I'm staying with Zayn until I can land on my own feet and get a great job and move into my own house.
I pulled out my phone and dialed his number and it rang, and rang... And rang... And rang... Then web to voicemail.
I pulled the phone away and ended the call looking diss appointed and I got up and grabbed my car keys and thought that maybe is go and check on him...
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I pulled into his driveway and walked up to the door and it was partially own and I walked right on in because his mum told me I could and that I was welcome anytime I wanted to come over to visit. I froze right when I touched the door... I heard a girl giggling.... I pushed it open even more and saw Josh sitting on the couch kissing another girl... I stood in the doorway with my mouth partially open and I was starting to cry and then Josh looked into the black T.V. and saw me... I saw the expression on his face saying: ' awe shit I just got caught' damn right you just got caught!!!! I stormed away when ever I saw him stand and turn to look at me... I ran to my car and he came running out of the house with that skank following closely behind... And she gasped as she saw who I was and Josh turned toward her and she smacked him and I walked over to him and did the same thing... I was pissed off too buddy.
" Why did you lie to me!?!? You told me that you were single and that you wanted only me!!!!!! You fucking lying bitch!!!!" The girl next to me slapped him again.
This time I punched him and said:
L You two timing mother fucker!!! I never want to see you again!!!!" And with that me and the girl gave each other a high five and she asked if I could give her a ride home... I did... Come to find out she really is awesome I like her, we might become best friends... Who knows?
I dropped her off at her house and she said thank you and that we should hang out sometime.. I mean I'm being nice because she didn't even know he was dating me so why should I be mad at her for something he did? After I dropped " Lisa" off at home I just busted out crying and after I made sure that my vision was clear enough I drove home to mum and Zayn. When I walked through the front door I ran straight to my room and slammed the door and plopped on my bed and cried into my pillow.
I heard the door open and close about 5 minutes after I came in here. I felt someone sit on the bed and then that person spoke while rubbing my back to calm me down.
" Cynthia please tell me what's wrong," Zayn said while moving his hand up my back. Oh god he's close to the spot... Oh not the spot... He doesn't even know about it yet... Then he touched it and I stiffened up and bit my lip to stop me from moaning out.
" Please stop... Please just move your hand," I said trying to sound normal.
" Why? What's wrong Cynthia?" Zayn asked as he stilled his hand for a couple of seconds and then started to rub circles in that certain spot I told him not to touch. I but my lip and tensed up... Gosh why does he have to do this to me? I couldn't help it any longer I let my lip free from the grasp that my teeth had a hold on and moaned, very loudly too... I couldn't stand it no more I just cracked and it came out of my mouth and before I could stop it, it already came out... Uh, oh I'm in trouble now.
" Zayn please stop... You probably know what that does to me now... You can st-," I was cut off by him doing it again ever so slightly and tilting my head to face him as he pressed his soft lips on mine. I had to break the kiss just to moan... Gosh why won't he stop? Wait why did he kiss me? I wonder why... Oh well ill find out later... Then he stopped rubbing that spot for A minute then kissed me again... He then rolled himself on top of me and put his hand on my upper back and pushed in and bit my neck ever so slightly and I was broken by that time... I just let it out... I moaned so loud mum was hollering at us to be quiet from downstairs and that's when he got off of me and bit his bottom lip just like I did and we looked away from each other and blushed ferociously.... Why? Why did he kiss me? Gosh he knows me too well and he now knows all of my turn on spots... He then looked at me and said:
" I'm sorry Cynthia... I didn't mean to do it... But when I heard you moan you just turned me on and I had to have you."
" No it's ok it's just now that you know all of them please don't do it again unless I want you too," I said looking at him and gave him a weak smile.
" Deal," Zayn said, " And why were you crying when you came home?"
" I caught Josh cheating on me... So now I'm... I was very upset but I'm over now... Because you helped me... Oh gosh why did I say that? Oh well, I wasn't going to stay with him that long anyway," I said looking so embarrassed because of what I just told him.
" Oh, I'm so sorry love," Zayn said, " And you know that whenever you moan... It just just turns me on so bad that I have to kiss you or do something... Just like when you yawn... It's like that time when we were in class and we were presenting and you were so tired you yawned and I dropped everything in my hands and put my hands on your hips and kissed you right there and then... In front of everybody... Then I got into trouble by the teacher saying that she knows I like you by I need to try and keep my distance from you in class," Zayn said smiling and coming closer to me...
" True... But why did he do it?" I asked so confused.
" Because he doesn't know what he's missing out on," Zayn said blushing and ducking his a little so that I couldn't see his cheek's. I smiled at that and got up on my hands and knees and crawled over to him on the bed and gave him a hug... He laughed and picked me up and twirling me into one of his famous bone crushing hugs.
I have to say I couldn't breath but I didn't complain because he also popped my back.
" Do you love me?" I asked pulling back a little when he stopped spinning me.
" With all my heart," Zayn said and then he hugged me again and we stayed like that until it was time for dinner.
( No we aren't dating... We say that to each other all the time just to be playing... But we might date somewhere in the story!!!)
