While listening to this you should try listening Heaven Knows. keep on loops :">
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Adrienne’s POV
I didn’t know how to react with what I just heard. Okay he hates me and I don’t even know why.
After he left, I just did what I do best--- staring into blankness. I was only awoken when a girl approached me.
“Hi Adrienne, I’m Kara” she said with a smile on her.
“Gosh, you’re so pretty.” She says while caressing my hair.
“Hello. Really? Thanks, you’re so pretty too” I said smiling at her.
“Awww, thanks. So you’re from Hale University, huh?” she asked while kinda braiding my hair
“Hm, yeah” I smiled at her again. I’m an introvert person I don’t usually got out that’s why I’m not good at socializing especially talking to a girl. I know it sounds so lame. Well you see, I have a history of girls disliking me, I don’t know why.
“Cool, so what made you decide to transfer here?” She stopped playing with my hair. She sat down in a sit in front of me.
“Hmm, I needed a new environment” I gave her a sly smile
“Ohh, okay. Um” she said while trying to digest what I just said.
I just smiled at her. You see, I’m not good at socializing.
“Um, Adrienne….?” She asked. Tho by the look in her face she’s not sure what to say.
“Yeah?” I just gave her a smile reassuring her that it’s okay.
“About, um.. kanina” she looks undecided
“Yeah?”
“I’d like to say sorry in behalf of Ian.” I was a little bit surprised, I thought we were alone that time.
“Oh I’m sorry. It’s not like I’m eavesdropping I just wanted to talk to Ian about something so I went to fetch Ian, and I heard what he said. He’s always like that, he’s sometimes a meanie. Haha. But he’s a good guy tho I can assure you” She smiled with happiness in her eyes
“Oh, don’t worry. I didn’t take it seriously.” I smiled at her.
“Really? Okay, good.” She hugged me. Wait? Does she like him?
After she hugged me, “Oh don’t get me wrong dear, he’s good friend of mine. I don’t see him like that. I already have someone” She smiles as she patted my back.
Okay, for a moment I thought she liked him. Haha, silly me
After a while, the bell rang and it was time for our third subject. Mathematics. Gaaahd, why did they even invented this subject.
*flashback*
“Good Gahhd Yen, we’ve been through this all day why can’t you still understand this? Ireciprocal mo muna bago mo idivide.” He’s been teaching me calculus for hours and I still don’t get it. Well, excused me, I sucked at Math. I loathe Math to the nth power.
“Ugh, I give up.” I said as I put my hands up in the air as a sign of surrendering. “there’s no hope, I don’t get it. It’s so hard” I just let my head rest in the table.
“C’mon don’t give up Babe.” He was patting my head. “c’mon sit straight. I’ll teach you how it is. I won’t let you fail. You have to get it for our future. Paano na kapag tinatanong ka ng mga anak natin at wala ako? Edi nakatunganga ka na jan at babagsak na sila, masisira na ang future nila? Paano na nila matutupad ang mga pangarap nila? Paano na sila magiging Doctor, Engineer o Lawyer? Paano nila mabubuhay ang pamilya nila let alone theirselves? Paano na yan Adrienne? Kargo mo yan, kaya ba yan ng konsensya mo? Ako hindi, kaya do your best because I’m not giving up so you shouldn’t give up too.” he yells. I was caught off guard. I don’t know what to feel, kung kikiligin ba ako or matutuwa or maiinis. Ain’t he the sweetest guys? :”””> that’s why I love him ehh.
I smiled then kissed him in his cheeks. “Ang OA mo Baby, Haha! Agad-agad? Future na agad ng mga babies natin? Hindi ba pwedeng babagsak muna ako? Opo sir, I’ll try my best to understand this lesson for our future and our children’s future. Hindi kaya ng konsensya ko. Haha. I love you Xyriel…” I hugged him then went back to my notebook to study.
“I love you too Baby, forever can never be long enough for me to feel like I’ve had long enough with you” he kissed my hair then he continued reading again. I just stared at him then he winked at me that made me feel like a Jelo.
Awww :””””> I’m the luckiest girl. I’m so lucky to have him and call him as mine. I love him so much. <3
*flashback ends*
Just when I got back to reality, the bell rang, thanked Gahd. I went outside to get some air. Even when eyes are opened it’s you I always see. You’re everywhere I go Xyriel. It’s breaking my heart every single seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years you are away from me. Every single day I managed to stay alive but I’m barely breathing Xyriel. And I don’t know how long I could keep up this act, alive yet dead inside.
The day went by so quickly, it was already 4:00, time to go home, and just like earlier I decided to walk. I greeted Nana, asked me a lot of question and after the inquisition we ate dinner. After dinner I took a shower then finished my homework, did some advance reading then again I find myself looking at the view. I guess I won’t be sleeping again.
Ian’s POV
“She’s always on my mind, from the time I wake up, till I close my eyes….”
I didn’t know how I ended up listening to this song but much to my hate I can relate. Althea’s been on my mind ever since. She never left my mind. Open or closed eyes it’s her all I see.
“Gaahd Althea, how long will I bare this agony? How long will I live in despair?” I asked her again why looking at her picture. While looking at her picture, I can’t help but to smile yet feel sad. Her smile, it always has its own way on making you feel okay like everything’s going to alright. But how, Thea? How will everything be okay when you’re up there and I’m here barely breathing, I can’t even touch you let alone see you.
“Tell me Althea, where do I start? Cos it’s breaking my heart just the idea of letting you go.”
“Wide awake or dreaming, I know you’ll never be there. So what’s the point on living? I act so brave to let everyone know I’m okay Althea but inside I’m shaking.”
I keep asking her hoping a miracle would happen and she’ll magically say “come with you I know you’re tired, I’m sorry, I love you, come my love” but instead I find myself again alone and talking to myself like a lunatic. Thanks for making me feel like this Althea, I hope you’re jumping in happiness for letting me live my life to the fullest like this. Thanks babe, I say this with utmost sincerity.
Author’s POV
“I don’t want to feel this way anymore. Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel alive again” they both said to themselves as they continue staring into blankness.
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Author's Note:
Typo's, grammar's, wrong used of tenses. I'm so sorry about it.
