Someone’s POV
“Ian, I love you babe”
Ringggg!!!
I woke up with sweats all over my body. Here I am again. This feeling…. I can’t escape…… Haaay, when will I ever stop feeling like this Althea?
I got up went to the bar to take a refill of scotch. I can’t sleep. It’s been like this for over two years now, same routine and I’m tired.
“Gaahd Althea, it’s been two years. Have I had enough of this? I’m tired. I can’t anymore. Let me be with you, please?” I was talking to myself again same as always. I went near the glass wall I can see the whole city here, what a great view to look at for a date, kinda wishing you were here with me Thea. I just wish you were here with me.
“I’d give up forever just to touch you again Althea…… I just wish you’d let me”
Adrienne’s POV
“Adrienne, sweetheart. Why are you still awake? It’s late. C’mon, sleep. It’s your first day of school tomorrow, you should get some sleep, you wouldn’t want to be late for your first day of class in your new school do you?” It’s Nana, she caught me again. Haaaay,
“I’m sorry Nana, I will.” I kissed her and she escorted me back to my room.
“I’m tired Nana, I’m tired missing him, I’m tired doing the same routine. I’m just tired” I said to her while she tucks me in my bed.
“Maybe tomorrow sweetheart, it’s different and you’ll be able to smile again” She looked at me with full of hope in her eyes so I tried smiling at her.
“A real one sweetheart” She smiled at me then kissed my forehead.
“Goodnight sweetheart, go to sleep. Everything will be alright” then she left.
Here I am again, having a hard time sleeping.
Ever since Xyriel died, I haven’t been sleeping regularly. I tried taking sleeping pills but it doesn’t work for me. I even tried talking to a shrink but it didn’t work. My parents were so worried about me back then so I decided to fake a smile and pretend I’m okay when inside, I’m not. I hide every night because I cannot put myself to sleep and relive what happen that night. I just can’t.
I went near the glass wall to look at the view. I remember the day when Xyriel took me to his favourite spot, it was overlooking the city, it was mesmerizing. I wanted to go there again but I can’t, because if I did I’ll remember what happen again and besides we moved to a new place I asked my parents if we could move to a new place because if we stay there I’d probably die of depression so I decided to asked my parents and they approve of it so we move out got a new house but I didn’t enrolled yet. It took me a year to enroll to a new school. Since my parents worked in abroad, it was just Nana who took care of me.
Maybe tomorrow, it’ll be okay. Maybe tomorrow, a miracle would happen. Maybe tomorrow, I’ll be happy. Maybe tomorrow, I wouldn’t be tired anymore. Yeah full of maybe’s.
Still looking at the view, I can’t help but to cry. I miss him, I miss you Xyriel.
“It’s been two years already, Xyriel. I’m so tired. Please, spare me with all the misery in the world.”
I remained looking at the view with my ipod playing Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.
“I just don’t want to miss you tonight... I just want you by my side tonight Xyriel.”
*The next day*
Since I didn’t sleep last night, I prepared early for my first day of school. It’s only 20mins away from our house just by walking so decided to walk. It’s a good day for walking today the sun was shining as the cold breeze wrap around me, feels so good, kinda wishing Xyriel’s walking with me. Hmm, maybe he is.
