Friday, October 21. 6:12pm.
Dear Journal,
I had my weekly visit with Dr. Thornton today. He asked about my week. I told him everything that had happened this week with Vanessa, starting at the party.
I started with when I got there, and how I immediately started looking for Vanessa. I had found her by her friends, and she had a drink in her hands. When I had said hi to her, she had started to giggle, and by then I knew that she had drunk a little too much.
I hung out with her the entire night. I asked her if we could go somewhere else private, and she nodded. I took her hand and guided her upstairs to an open bedroom. I told Dr. Thornton how we made love, but that I was confused because afterward, Vanessa was crying and ran out of the room. That hurt.
I went on to tell him how I tried talking to her the whole week, but that I couldn't ever get close to her. I told him about everything that was on Facebook. I told him how I tried to go to her house so that I could try to talk to her.
I told him how I couldn't get her out of my head ever, and how I needed her in my life. I told him how much she meant to me and that I was afraid to lose her.
When I was finished, he was silent for awhile. Finally, he started to talk. But I didn't like what he told me.
He said that I had an obsession with Vanessa. I asked him what he meant and he explained that an obsession is something that continually is on someone's mind, so much so that it is troubling and dangerous.
When he said that, I got angry. I tuned out everything else he was saying and silently fumed. When our session had ended, he walked me out to my mom, who was waiting for me. Dr. Thornton asked to talk to her privately, so I sat down and she followed him into his office.
When my mom came out, she was crying.
We were silent on the way home.
I was not "obsessed" with Vanessa. We were meant to be together.
Dr. Thornton was supposed to be on my side. He's supposed to understand everything I tell him. He's not supposed to tell me that I did something wrong. I didn't do anything wrong.
Vanessa should have known we were meant to be together. I thought she did. She should've known. I can't lose her. She the only one for me.
And I'm going to show her.
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so this is the last chapter of Obsession.
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