yo yo yo i'm here i'm queer and i hate everything about living
but anyway ye i started high school and it's gross and it's week five and i've already considered jumping off the balcony and ending it way too many times for me to be okay.
but yeah! i started high school and i hate it because i have pretty much no friends there and it's big and it feels really grey and :(
all my other friends are going to school on the other side of the city and my mom won't let me go atm but i'm gonna work really hard this year while doin a bunch of research on the bus route to the school i wanna go to bc then she can't say no
but i'm taking Chinese and that's cool the teachers nice
buT UGH IF I COULD HAVE FAILED THE 8th GRADE I WOULD'VE THIS SHIT GOT ME FUCKED UPP
i have never done work in my life and now i'm tryinG TO MAINTAIN THIS 4.0 I MIRACULOUSLY HAVE YA FEEL
but my mom has me taking 3 AP and one Honors so if you see me dead on the news just know it's bc i drank too much bleach
but legit the 3 most important people in my life go to different schools and 2 of them at the same one and ugH my mom knows i didn't want to go there
and i still don't have my materials bc my dad lied about getting me them at the end of 3 weeks ago :)
he said he was gonna get me new clothes too but...where they at :)))
i seem bratty but honestly i don't have ANYTHING for school and i only have like 3 pairs of jeans and some shirts i am not prepared and he's been promising me this since JULY
i've kinda given up though
whatever
i won't be going to this school next year though, so i'm over it.
someone take me to their high school i'd honestly prefer it to where i am now
IN OTHER NEWS
i have been working on the update to Sarah Smiles and it's SO. HARD.
writing is hard in general tbh idk why i like it but i just want it to be perfect and what i write never even is tbh.
i'm sorry.
but ye Sarah Smiles next chapter should be out before the end of the year??? hopefully??? i need to keep writing if it isn't up by 2017 someone come stab me bc i'll be waiting for death
ALSO??? MATTY HEALY'S BACKCOMB CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS
homeboy goes onto the BBC Live Lounge at thE PHILHARMONIC WITH THIS MESS
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and i'm just STRUCK because the day before i was like "am i unstanning?? is this it?" cuz homeboy up in here with some white boy dreads and i can't do that shit i was finna drop him like i dropped George circa. 2013 with his grinch finger hair but then he tweets this girl i follow on Twitter and he was explaining himself and apologized for the confusion and i was like
aight
cool
so ya bitch is stanning again and then his beautifUL RAT ASS IS ON BBC WITTHATHAIR and i'm praising bc he did so good but still
