isn't that so sad? // !rant book¡

i am a freshman n seniors r too good for this world, other freshman suk.

ughhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 

 i just recalled something that makes me EMO

i mean i'm already emo despite the fact i have no soul and no emotions but fuCk 

okay so in school i take Chinese class 

I really like it!! I really REALLY like it! i have a bunch of friends (ok, like, 4 or 5) but that's more friends than any other class i have and it's rlly good the teachers cool and i have a bunch of upperclassmen friends

so there's this senior 

and he's GORGEOUS OH MY GOD 

he's got like these longass curly dreads that are literally ALL  

THE 

WAY 

DOWN 

HIS 

BACK

i nut everytiME I SEE THEM

but he just hugs me everytime i see him and we're beginning to engage in smalltalk but beforehand i couldn't talk to anyone to save my life 

and i also have these two other senior friends named Monica and Matthew and they're funny as hell and are like pretty positive i have a crush on the hot one and shit

but yeah

ughhhhh he's gorgeous 

IN OTHER NEWS LET'S FILE INTO THE CURRENT DRAMA OF MY LIFE

there's this guy i started dating like last Monday. i liked him a lot for some reason, i dunno why. but anyways he was weird when he was dating. he didn't really seem to do normal 'dating' things, which i passed off as y'know, lets not rush things and shit. but he would like talk down on me and sort of shove me around and shit. i passed that off as playing.

and then one day he slapped me. 

i passed it off as playing again. 

on Saturday, we were supposed to go to the mall and have a movie date.

that morning, he sent me a text. hold on, lemme pull up my receipts real quick.

so basically it said 'i'm not breaking up with you, just taking a break.' or whatever

and i'm all 'we've been dating a week?? the fuck????' (it's so hard not to say the n word while typing bc even tho i'm black i'm trying not to trigger the white SJWs) 

but i'm all 'okay, cool'

and i still go to the date

i got dropped off at 5:30. he was supposed to be there at 5:45.

TELL ME WHY THE FUCK THIS BOY DIDN'T SHOW UP UNTIL 7:00

WHAT THE FUCK WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO AT THE MALL ON MY OWN FOR AN HOUR AND 30 MINUTES

LOOKING LIKE I WAS AN ELEMENTARY STUDENT WHO LOST MY PARENTS

tbh i just sat in the comic book section of barnes and noble and also talked to the workers at hot topic bc since i'm there a lot we're technically like best friends

when he DOES show up, i already told my mom to pick me up at 8. so he calls another one of his friends, she shows up and THEY see the movie together.

okay, cool. nice. rad.

we don't talk the rest of the weekend.

on Monday, last period, his friend Ryan comes up to me and is like "so y'all broke up?" and i'm like "what" and he was like "lolzor he said you and him were taking a break so y'all are essentially breaking up" and i was like ".....o" and i'm just standing there silently for a moment

and then the rest of the day he (being the boyfriend) is just bothering me, thinking i'm talking about him and shit 

like stfu

no one likes ur hoe ass

so he's just bothering me and my friend and calling me a bunch of mean shit for absolutely no fucking reason

but it's cool

cause i ranted to some friends and everyone pretty much hates him now so :)

and the hot senior gave me a hug and was all "breakups can be hard :(" after he saw me yesterday and was like "what's wrong?" and shit