Michael had broke his phone so he was using his friends old phone. It didnt have service so he could only use it when around wifi. For the longest time he wouldn't let me see his phone he said it was because he didnt want me to see that he watched porn. I honestly dont care if he did or didnt.
When he had his friends phone we traded phones for a few. I went on his snapchat. Remember that slut i was talking about a few chapters back. Well... i found her snapchat and i read every single message.
He lied to me. He said nothing happened with them. They kissed and god knows what else and i know if i ask he wouldn't be honest. He said it was when we were broken up, that he didnt have anyone to go to and she was the only one that would answer. Honestly i dont fully believe that i think it was also when he went to her party that things were happening....
After reading how happy she made him and that if he wasnt with me he would be with her and everything. I threw his phone at him and ran to the bathroom bawling my eyes out. I couldn't even breath. I was broken. That was the first time in months that i thought about harming, or ending it all. I walked out of the bathroom grabbed all his stuff and told him to get out. We argued, i cried, he explained, my mom came out, more arguing, she left, i wanted to die, like literally just kill myself right then and there, he held me, kissed me, told me he loved me and he never meant any of those things.
Still to this day i feel broken, i feel like im nothing but a mess and no one can love me and all ill ever be is just this worthless piece of shit...
