Heart Broken

emptiness

Its been a while i dont remember how long exactly, but it just been a while.
I cant escape the thought of him. I try so hard but i just cant take the thought of him out of my mind. I feel so empty without him. I wish i didnt, but i do. But there's no way in hell am going to tell him that. Or show him. He watched me die and as far as hes concerned i rose from my grave and told him to fuck off. He makes me feel so strong somtimes , well more the the thought of how he left me dose. It makes me what to show him just how happy i am without him,
But then again somtimes just thinking of him makes me want to stay in bed all day & do absolutely nothing. I want to be strong but the pain is just eating me away. I dont know how much longer i can take.

Xo,